You are not special.

You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. 
You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else. 



there are some people that are naturally at ease when in a situation where they are with people they don't know very well. they make friends easily. it's just... uncomplicated.

I, however, generally turn into an awkward, stumbling, im-sorry-i-think-ive-forgotten-how-to-use-words kind of mess. especially if it's someone who is 'cool' or like, intimidating idk.
at least, that's how i am when i have no support system around. but it's strange because when i do have that support system of friends - even if it is just one person- everything is so much easier and i feel so much more relaxed.

like, wow, coolest fucking story ever vicky. you're not special. this isn't a revelation.everyone feels like this, most of the time. please stop boring us.

i am boring me.


some people are hilarious in real life. and then on the internet they are just so... lost. and cringeworthy.
and then some people are hilarious online, but are ridiculously awkward in reality.

i don't even know which one is better anymore.
technologically driven society, i guess.

wow i couldn't spell technologically just then
technoligcally technoligilly technlacilly technolalalacly technadkf;adf;kly
thanks spell check
you're welcome vicky


if you're wondering why i bothered to make this incredibly pointless post
it's because i am procrastinating. as usual.

havent even started studying maths or french. at all. i'm so screwed for maths. if i don't get excellence in this internal, i can't get maths endorsed this year. fun, right?




idk sometimes i just want to curl up in a ball under my covers and just stay there for a whole day. watch the light filter in through the gaps of the curtains, then watch it fade away with the sunset.

pretty sure this is a normal feeling to get when you are a teenager.
pretty sure feeling fat is a normal feeling too.

oooooooh~~ no vicky don't bring over the pity party.
or the "you're not faaaaaat~~~" encouragers

lol please it's not a call for attention, it's an honest musing from my mind.

i am, however, feeling much more healthier lately.
(excluding today and yesterday where i got those $5 kfc lunch packs yesterday and ate a whole bag of pods and got a $5 bk whopper jr deal today shhhhhhh fuck cheap delicious food)

mondays i usually have netball practice in the morning, pilates afterschool (which starts at 4 and for the half an hour beforehand i 'train' in the school gym) and then swimming right after that.
tuesdays i sometimes have umpiring (does that count as exercise idk)
wednesdays i have badminton
saturdays i have netball

in addition to p.e. right now being horrendous since we're doing a WHOLE TERM of rogaine ugh?!

idk it's a lot more activity than i usually have. and then on days i dont have organized sport, i try to squeeze in this workout:

and according to jade this one's very good but i haven't personally tried it:

yeah you're welcome. WHEN U START FITTING IN DEM SIZE 8 JEANS U REMEMBER TO MENTION VICKY XU IN YOUR PRAYERS BEFORE BEDTIME.

got my mum to do the bootyshakin workout with me once hahaha. comedic gold. 

oh yeah, speaking of umpiring (way up there), i did my first umpiring session a week ago and wow did i feel like a bitch throughout the whole game. crushing little year 7 hearts. i think i made a girl cry.

"the whistle makes me their god" - as spoken by a certain dean winchester on a certain supernatural show.

not feeling too bad at school right now. apart from maths and maybe french I feel like I'm coping pretty well in class and all the material seems relatively easy.

nek minnit exam results??????? idk

all i know is i want that double science prize at the end of the year so sosososo bad.

(shh vicky it's not orthodox to admit your goals on the internet when everyone knows theres a slim as shit chance of you achieving them.)

YEAH FUCK YOU SOCIETY..... from vicky.

*unattractive snigger*

inside joke dw

wow is it already 1:40am? this is why i shouldn't take 4 hour naps during the day. apparently i snore when i nap. yeah, well, i probably snore when im tired and when im tired i nap SO.




i am so looking forward to this weekend.
expect pictures.

not on facebook though.


photos that are posted on facebook that shouldn't be on facebook and everyone who posts these kinds of pictures lose my respect like ~that.
(only applies to people under 18 tbh)
(and only if you're a shithole)

• photos of you blatantly posing while holding alcohol up like wow u are a hard cunt 
• photos of you macking on your boyfriend/girlfriend bro have u heard of class ESPECIALLY IF YOU'VE ONLY BEEN 'GOING OUT' FOR LIKE, 3 DAYS.
• omg speaking of that
• PEOPLE WHO POST STUPID INDIRECT STATUSES ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY "~MISS" SOME STUPID CRUSH OR LOVE THEM SO MUCH OR CHEESY SHIT THAT MAKES ME WANT TO THROW UP LIKE UGH SHUT UP
• people who send me temple run /other game requests (i am srs if i get another one of those i am looking u up in the college list and I WILL BE HIDING UNDER YOUR BED AT NIGHT)
• people in general

hehe bcz of tumblr the 'insults' #asshole #homo #bastard and #faggot all have positive connotations to me now.

wow misha collins is such an #asshole look at him fucking prancing around doing charity work in haiti who do u think u are fucking perfect human being #bastard dammit jared padalecki u are not allowed to be around babies wtf u have a baby now why would u do that ughhhhhhhhhh

wow one direction wow you are just beautiful little #faggots i hate you so much why stop stupid zayn u are a #homo stop with your blatant eye sexing with harry no wait louis why are u such a sassy piece of rainbow shit FUCK U

ok sorry i got a little carried away

how do u blog

i cant remember

i suck

i just thought it was time for a good ramble

one thing that makes me super happy and brightens the fuck out of my day is when there are totally clear blue skies with no clouds in sight.

just thought you should know.




my friends are all so talented. like ugh omg??????????????

fuck you all



just kidding i love you
but srsly not fair


yeah sure i guess im good at some things
not good enough to ever be the best though

so that's what makes me depressed most of the time

and by depressed i mean derp-ressed

because,




oh hey did you know:
a cat's penis is sharply barbed along it's shaft?

don't go telling me you don't learn anything from watching tv
in this case it's supernatural ofc

sad thing is, i already knew about that before hearing cas say it.



everyone just tunes out when i start talking about supernatural.
i dont blame them


oh i can feel im losing you. let me tell you a story.
I was fangirling on charlie's wall telling him about how the baradene girl i was debating against last week said something about supernatural in her debate and how i was like oh.ma.gawd and fangirled with her about it after the debate had finished.

turns out shes a mutual friend through charlie.

awk.
ward.





I buy magazines every month and i never have time to read them

poor Dolly February over there is sitting pretty sad and virginal right now.
so is march
and april
and now may.

whoops?




i have half a blog post saved in my drafts.
it has all the some of the vague details of my experiences of taylor swift/onedirection/everyhthing else that has happened these past two months i've been mysteriously inactive.
haven't finished it yet though. no one really wants to read it apart from future!me.

ha

narcissistic and proud.

shapes

i find it annoying how everything has to have a double meaning nowadays.

if i draw hearts everywhere on my hands, books, across the page, it doesnt mean im in 'love' or that i'm thinking about a 'crush' or whatthefuckever. maybe i just like hearts? maybe i just like the shape and the curve and the simplicity.

they're much easier to draw compared to stars. stars are little pieces of shit. you can never get each arm to be identical, you can never make the star look perfect. or,well, at least, i cant.

circles are good. i like drawing loads and loads of circles- small ones in the spaces left by the big ones drawn side by side.

squares are pretty alright too.



triangles are lame

unless you're drawing triangles within a triangle
or bigger triangles outlining triangles on the inside.



all in all

i like doodling shapes

galloping abs

helpsies pplz pl0x

okay new tumblr url

they're either supernatural or vampire diares related lmao

accioackles.tumblr.com
alphadean.tumblr.com
callbobby.tumblr.com
croatoanblood.tumblr.com
elenasporch.tumblr.com
gilbertporch.tumblr.com
gilbertring.tumblr.com
iamnotstefan.tumblr.com
lonelygilbert.tumblr.com
lonelygilberts.tumblr.com
lonelywinchesters.tumblr.com
novak-vessel.tumblr.com
stefansrevenge.tumblr.com
onwickerybridge.tumblr.com
winchesterbrother.tumblr.com
xcroatoan.tumblr.com

no one reading my blogspot actually watches supernatural/vampire diaries though so what am I doing...

and yeah I seriously just saved 16 urls hahahaha im being a huge hypocrite cuz i hate it when people do that.



LEAVE YOUR FAVOURITE DOWN IN THE COMMENTS PRETTY PLEASE

one direction makes me so happy

oh god

i'm so ashamed of admitting it

but at the same time i'm not

because they just make me so happy.

like, when i listen to their songs.

i get this big stupid grin on my face.

i cant even speak in long sentences now.

just typing in paragraphs cuz this is how i'd speak irl.

rn watching the 'year in the making' video.

why are they so adorable.

and talented.

my ovaries do not stand a chance.

i stayed up to 7am last night watching all the video diaries and some interviews.

what has my life become?!

spent all day today watching their videos as well.

they are just really fucking hot and amazing at singing okay?





ohmygod I'M SO SORRY SOPHIE.



it's like, once you get dragged in a little bit YOU CAN'T GET OUT.



lol sophie remember last year in english

when you and i mocked rebecca and olivia for liking one direction and giving them heaps of shit about it.

now look at me.

I'VE BECOME ONE OF THEM.



i suggest if you don't want to become a fangirl for one direction,

you stay the hell away from their live acoustic performances and music videos and interviews and video diaries.

okay?

just trust me.

or you will fall in love with them.





jade's worse than me.

shout out (SHOUT OUT!!!) to jade:

my buddy who is in a even deeper one direction fangirl denial pool of shit than i am.

existential crisis

For 15 years on this earth, what do I really have to show for it? I've contributed to a heavy large dent in my parents' bank account, and I'm responsible for a significant amount of moth deaths, but other than that?

I don't have any hobbies. Well, I do, but not any that you can list down on a job application or talk about at a college interview. I write down singing, piano, reading, netball, writing, cooking, and experiencing new cultures. But that's all bullshit. I (evidently) suck at singing and have kinda given up on it now; I've stopped playing piano for more than a year; I barely read and a lot of the time it's fanfiction; I suck at netball (cough team 5); the most I write is when I write on this blog; my cooking is limited to omelets, scrambled eggs, fried eggs, pancakes, other breakfast foods, fried rice and two minute noodles; and the only country I've been to properly overseas is China (and even then, only Shanghai) and I quit Chinese and have forgotten pretty much everything I learnt over the 6 years I did lessons.

But really, what I actually should write down is blogging, watching and obsessing over TV shows and celebrities, putting useless shit up on my bedroom walls, tumblr, facebook, pretty much everything on the internet, shopping, movies and sleeping in till 4pm.

Basically, I'm a fake, a quitter and completely worthless.

Oh, don't worry, I'm not gonna jump off a bridge or anything. Nor am I depressed. I'm just, reflecting, I guess. It's constructive.

Ugh, I just feel like I haven't actually stuck to anything. I used to do Kumon, Chinese class, piano, maths class - all this crap outside school, and I dropped them all.

And now, singing. I'm kind of dropping singing. I don't mean to, it's just everytime I start singing I remind myself of the whole choir situation and I get a really shitty feeling and don't want to sing anymore. Actually, a couple nights ago, I had a dream where Ms Flint sent me an email saying that the only reason I didn't get into SA was because I forgot to fill out this huge chunk in the registration form about SA and so she couldn't place me into the choir, but if I filled it out, it'd be algoods. I actually woke up thinking it was real for a while (at the back of my head) and for the whole day I remembered I had a good dream the night before and kept trying to remember it. And when I did, I realised the whole form incident was just a dream. It sucked.

The awkward moment when your dreams are better than your reality.

I've actually been having really strange dreams lately. I had the choir dream, a zombie dream, a dream where I was on a cruise and a couple more that I can't remember right now. I'll blog about them later (does anyone actually care/read about my dreams??)

I just feel down.



I finished my CV and applied for Glassons, Cotton On, La Porchetta (Ben got me to), and McDonalds. IDK where else to apply. Glassons application was a biiiitch. It was so long and you had to do stuff like write about your 'personal style' and leave an answering machine recording for them on why you'd be good at the job.

Do you guys have any ideas where else I could apply?

Don't think I'll get hired by anything but maybe McD's. And I've already gotten two rejection emails from Queen St and Newmarket branches lol.


I wanted to do a St Johns first aid course but they cost like, $160 bucks WTAF.
I want to sign up for yoga. Or zumba. Or Karate. Or kickboxing.
Maybe proper singing lessons. Or art lessons. Definitely want to start up piano again.
Want to learn how to HTML/CSS. Or how to gif/do photo edits on tumblr. At least then my tumblring will actually be somewhat beneficial.
Really want to go volunteer somewhere. Preferably something hospital/medical related so I can get an insight into the job, yknw? Most volunteer places want +18s.
Guys have any volunteering suggestions?

Elizabeth Knox retirement home is very mainstream. haha. 








I feel so lost.















Last night I had an extreme craving for red meat. Like, foetal position "I NEED BEEEEEEF". Still want a  burger or something relevant atm but NO BEEF IN HOUSE WHAT and my mum wont let me go down to BK ugh.

wtf lol idek.







winnie your website is amazing.


+1

trying to study brain bee

Visual Learners:

• use visual materials such as pictures, charts, maps, graphs, etc.
• have a clear view of your teachers when they are speaking so you can see their body language and facial expression
• use colour to highlight important points in text
• take notes or ask your teacher to provide handouts
• illustrate your ideas as a picture or brainstorming bubble before writing them down
• write a story and illustrate it
• use multi-media (e.g. computers, videos, and filmstrips)
• study in a quiet place away from verbal disturbances
• read illustrated books
• visualize information as a picture to aid memorization

Auditory Learners:

• participate in class discussions/debates
• make speeches and presentations
• use a tape recorder during lectures instead of taking notes
• read text out aloud
• create musical jingles to aid memorization
• create mnemonics to aid memorization
• discuss your ideas verbally
• dictate to someone while they write down your thoughts
• use verbal analogies, and story telling to demonstrate your point

Tactile/Kinesthetic Learners

• take frequent study breaks
• move around to learn new things (e.g. read while on an exercise bike, mold a piece of clay to learn a new concept)
• work at a standing position
• chew gum while studying
• use bright colors to highlight reading material
• dress up your work space with posters
• if you wish, listen to music while you study
• skim through reading material to get a rough idea what it is about before settling down to read it in detail.

Definitely an auditory learner. 

Ugh I hate studying in holidays. But dammit I'm gonna do something productive today. Charlie has already studied all of Brain Bee. WTF?! I've barely read the first page. We're supposed to be on Chapter 7 or something on Brain Bee already but I've just been nodding along at the lunchtimes and I never have any idea what they're talking about, so I really need to catch up....

Damn I've been watching Pretty Little Liars lately (I finished catching up on Supernatural! Woohoo!!) and ohmyGOD Pretty Little Liars is SO FUCKING GOOD. I can't even... ugh. So good. And there is so much funny shit in it as well as drama and mystery and akdf/alksdflskdfsdf NEW FANDOM!

I ship Ezria so hard. SO HARD. Maybe just as much as Delena. I will fucking cry when they break up (cuz I know they will). CUTEST COUPLE ON TV AWARD GOES TO THEM.

Oh, FUCK! SPEAKING OF DELENA.... 

THEY KISSED THEY KISSED THEY KISSED EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING HURTS. I WAITED FOR THAT MOMENT FOR TWO YEARS GUYS. TWO YEARS OF SQUEALING EVERYTIME THEY'RE IN THE SAME ROOM TOGETHER, BREATHING THE SAME AIR, LOOKING AT EACH OTHER, ETC, ETC.

ah yes, finally, years of heavy breathing and close proximity to each other has paid off. Deleeennaaaa!!!!!

oh, and "breathing the same air". Guess who I could be breathing the same air with this October? 

SOMEONE FROM SUPERNATURAL!!! I'm hoping it's Misha Collins. Because if you hadn't known, he is my friggin hero. I couldn't sleep a couple nights ago because I was imagining what would happen if he actually came.  I think I'd pass out if I talked to him. Or took a photo with him. OR HUGGED HIM. A.KDFJ.SLKDFSD I CANT. Also, breathing the same air that he breathed that had gone through and around his body that would be going through my system too KADLFK;SJFKSDFLKSDKLMFSKDF

It would be just as awesome if Jared Padalecki or Jensen Ackles came. OR ALL THREE. But that's very unlikely. Or just Jared and Jensen because they're awesome together. UGH JUST ANYONE. Jim Beaver is likely since he just got killed off. Still kicking myself for missing when Mark Sheppard came. Back in October last year I still hadn't got to Season 5 and didn't realise how awesome Crowley was. Seriously, Crowley = Best demon and one of my favourite characters. WHY DIDNT I GO :((((

I don't know why I talk about Supernatural on this blog because no one watches it with me. Sigh.

Last night I played like, 4 hours of Guitar Hero. Carry On My Wayward Son was one of the songs and I flipped my fucking shit because that's the song that always plays in the Supernatural season finale montages at the start of the episode to show what had happened throughout the season.

See? This is me procrastinating. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

mission accomplished

after a year of saying I would finish my poster wall, i finally did it today. IT'S DONE!

Finally, I can cross that off my list. FUCK YES PRODUCTIVITY.
Well, this is as productive as I get in the holidays.


Used up so much blutack. You might think "oh it's just sticking a couple of posters on a wall, how hard can it be" but you don't understand that I have to decide what poster to use (my favourites are always in the middle of the column) and which ones to discard. And I'm VERY indecisive. Plus, this is like, a hundred and twenty something posters, so if you're sitting there thinking I'm pathetic, FUCK YOU.

Also, if you're a regular reader of my blog then you'd know how long I've procrastinated this for.


POSTER WALL DONE WOOHOO

mockingjay

i am having the most painful response to reading a book i have ever experienced.

the only other sobs (caused by reading) that could rival the ones i just produced would be when i read emancipation proclamation (twilight fanfiction) in the scene when edward leaves bella. that was pretty ugly.

but even so, those sobs were like, a momentary thing. i got over it.

from page 450 -- when buttercup and katniss reunited and katniss finally said "she's not coming back" and "shes dead!" -- to the last word of the 'acknowledgements' from the author, i was just full on non-stop sobbing. no, not crying. not a couple of tears. full on, body-racking, hysterical sobs. non stop fountain of tears.

and throughout all three books i could never decide if i shipped katniss/peeta more or katniss/gale, but then the ending was just so beautiful (and induced another super powerful round of tears) that i kinda hated gale for a bit and decided katniss/peeta was meant to be.

ugh i have so many feelings right now.

mockingjay was just miserable to read. i felt super depressed for most of the book, which is probably what caused the mass explosion of waterworks at the end. that doesn't mean mockingbird wasnt good - cuz it was very good.  .... it was just ... emotionally draining...?

like, it revoked a sense of 'there was no more hope in the world. kill yourself.'

yeah. that feeling.

just....



....everything fucking HURTS.







also, it was 4.45am when i got to the part where the tears started, so they had to be silent tears.



i'm still kinda deciding on what my opinion is on the ending to the series. i mean, it was never gonna be a happily ever after, and it's not like everything could go to plan. people had to die, shitstorms had to happen. i didnt very much like the whole katniss-is-pretty-much-coocookerazzy thing or the fact that i felt katniss was so alone without prim, her mum, her dad or gale.

but i understood why it had to happen.

it feels like reading the ending to this book has opened my eyes to the cruelties of the world and i kinda feel like giving up on humanity.



basically,

boggs death: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
finnicks death: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
prims death: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:




"you love me. real or not real?"
"real."

FOREVER CRYING. NO EMOTICON FOR THIS FEELING. I AM DEAD INSIDE.









i dont want to sleep.





[edit] last night, after writing this post, i was lying in bed and i realised that the whole story started with Katniss wanting to save Prim and volunteering as tribute instead of her, but in the end Katniss couldn't save Prim and she was killed. ;akjdf;skdfjslkdf everything hurts.



seriously if you havent read Hunger Games you really need to. NOW.



[edit#2] i just re-read this post and realised how pathetic i am now in the light of day hahahahaha. not deleting though cuz this post reflected my true reaction to finishing the series and i want to keep it.

What if it was true, that all we thought was right, was wrong?

I came across a really really good band a couple nights ago. They're called Manchester Orchestra and omggggg I'm in love with them now.

also, if you havent heard Taylor Swift's new song on the Hunger Games Soundtrack, you really need to. 

so, my brother told me not to apply to cotton on, because apparently they have video cameras in the stores, and that the moment you start to go a little off task or like, bum off in any way, they call you up and they say "why aren't you doing work?" and you get reprimanded.

woah, intense. no thank you.

a private number just called me and there was just rustling on the other end of the phone. either someone pocketdialled me, or THERE IS A SERIAL KILLER WAITING TO SLAUGHTER ME AND IS HIDING IN MY CLOSET.




OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD

if i mysteriously die SOMEONE TRACE THE PRIVATE NUMBER THAT CALLED MY PHONE OKAY?!

AVENGE MY DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

currently on my xmas wishlist:

the first couple are things i really really want

• black high top converses
• wreck this journal by keri smith
• a nail buffer (the four sided one that maria has that makes ur nails uber shiny)
• (frog) shower radio
• supernatural dvds (except for season 1) 
• memoirs of a geisha book
• summer clothes
• necklaces and summery/boho/layering bracelets
• any of the following men:
• jensen ackles
• ian somerhalder
• kellan lutz
• andrew garfield
• adam levine
• there are a lot more but i don't want to bore you
• tickets to florence and the machine concert
• a 1967 Chevy Impala (black)
• some paris eiffel tower poster art (like the stuff from typo) for my walls
• a boyfriend
• money
• more money
• a job
• an easy job that pays well
• money
• money
• MONEY
• MONEY
• MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just walked into the living room where mum was curled up on the couch watching tv. I look at the screen and it's the chinese tele version of winnie the pooh, so thinking she was just watching it because there was nothing else on, I switch the channel, when she suddenly yells:

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! I WAS WATCHING THAT! I WANT TO KNOW WHY RABBIT'S CROPS ARENT GROWING!!!!"

une célébrité avec une barbe et sourcils mince.... c'est qui?

i was about to go slightly insane from watching too much supernatural, so i decided to get my creative jucies flowing and i thought i might as well paint since i have paints from art this year.

oh btw i think this was the FIRST TIME i've ever tried properly painting a face!! 

I TRIED TO DRAW THE SHADOW ON THE LEFT SIDE OF HER FACE BUT FOR SOME REASON IT LOOKS LIKE A BEARD OMG.

and because of the eyebrows, i came to the conclusion that this doesnt really resemble the celebrity i was drawing, but really just looks like an unshaven drag queen....

soooo, time for you to guess who it is (leave a comment with who you thought it was!):

...

...

...

...

...

...

er yeah. kristen stewart. hahahaha....

i dont think i will bother drawing her hair because i will most likely mess it up badly (even worse than it is atm)

oh btw dont u think from the nose up it totally looks like ashley greene!??!

there is no meaning to this post.

EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH SUPERNATURAL UGHHH SO GOOD

fuck my life

just finished watching season 4 finale of supernatural.

i am sobbing and i have goosebumps all over and my heart is shattered.
how the fuck am i supposed to go to sleep WHEN THE MOTHERFUCKING APOCALYPSE JUST STARTED!?!?!

RUBY THAT LYING CONNIVING MANIPULATIVE HORRIBLE SON OF A BITCH I AM SO ANGRY.

AND I FUCKING THOUGHT THAT ANGELS WERE SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD GUYS BUT NOOOO THEY HAD TO FUCK EARTH OVER AS WELL.

and now lucifer is out but dean has to kill him cuz he swore to the angels BUT HOW THE FUCK DOES ONE KILL THE DEVIL!?!?


forever crying.


everything hurts.




this is not healthy.





(does anyone here watch supernatural? i desperately need someone to fangirl with...)

2011

I think I can safely say that 2011 has been the best year I've had so far.

I guess there have been other good years - Year 6 and 5 hold lots of great memories for me. I can't really remember anything except for odd random memories from before Year 4. There were aspects in Year 7 that were kind of horrible for me: I didn't like MRIS at all and thought my time was being wasted at school everyday since I never actually learnt anything and the extracurriculars were shit, etc. The friends were alright, even though I'm not close to any of my old friends there anymore. Year 9 form class was pretty lame cuz we didn't even know each other. I got close with Jade and Maria and Maggie and stuff in Year 9 though, which was pretty good. I loved social studies and maths class in Year 9 - not the subjects, but the class environment, yknw?

Well, first reason why this year rocked: I've had a great class who I've gotten so close to, and I'm basically friends with everyone and a lot of them are just such awesome people who I think I'll continue being friends with even if we're in different classes next year. Sure, we won't be as close, but hopefully we'll still say hi in the corridors or something. It's been one of my favourite classes I've had. Year 9 was pretty shit because our class just didn't know each other and I can barely remember who was actually in my class. I guess I really don't want that to happen next year in Year 11 since our intake will be split up, but I really really wish we didn't have to change classes and destroy the friendships we made this year. This is basically the main reason I don't want this year to end. I've made so many new friends in a lot of my classes - not just my form class. But yeah, my form class is close and I genuinely think my form class is the best one in our year level. We've got the best people (no bitches or overly-socially retarded people) and we're really tight, unlike a couple of other intakes, so I think I was really lucky to get into Intake 1.

Second, my teachers this year have been the best. (In fact, I should be doing my xmas cards to them atm but I got distracted with checking my blogspot, then seeing winnie's post, then deciding to write a blog post cuz I am a emotional teenage motherfucker with a lot of feelings). My xmas cards are pretty much going to be the same for all of my teachers, even though everything I say for each of them would be completely genuine. I really have learnt so much and I've got pretty good relationships with my teachers this year, albeit a couple of them are still pretty intimidating (cough Mr Howe). I mean, I got really good marks in my end of year exams (all E's!!!) and everythings been going shitgood. I've enjoyed all my subjects and I wouldn't mind at all having the same bunch of teachers next year (yes, even maybe the certain science teacher if it meant I got to have the same teachers in all my other subjects). I really hope I get Mdme Morton again next year cuz French was so fun this year, and I learnt so so so much in English - more than I ever have in other years. Our Art class was so much chill than all the other Art classes and everyone just cracks lame jokes and we all talk about vampire diaries across the room while Mr Ball just does our artwork for us hahaha.

Then, I've got my 'asian' group at school, who (from my perspective) haven't had too much drama this year. I mean, for me, at least. Year 9 was kinda shit cuz me and Joanna were fighting and estranged from each other for the whole year and I had way too many caps lock arguments with a couple of people over facebook haahha. One aspect that sucked about this year was that so many people from our group changed schools (Reb, Rach, Ding....), and next year even more people are leaving (Aimee, possibly Meilin), but the people that left only left in Term 4 so it didn't impact on the year much. And plus I've been seeing them so much these couple of weeks cuz of all the birthday parties people have been having. I know that for some people they've been having a shit time this year regarding friendship drama, and I also know some people who hated last year cuz of friends excluding them/bullying them, and so this year has been waaay better for them.

I'm feeling really melancholic about this year ending. I'm really effing looking forward to holidays and just not going to school anymore, but I just wish that once holidays finish and Term 1 2012 starts nothing changes from this year so everything could just be as good as 2011. A lot of other things have contributed on 2011 being a good year (Kah*nui, Vampire diaries lol, etc) but I have a feeling that everything next year may change. It sucks cuz I'm not allowed to talk about it with anyone so I'm just in my little corner alone suffering the waiting process by myself.....
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....yep I'm pregnant.

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.... Just kidding.


Here's hoping for a good  great 2012.

Hi. My name is Vicky and I am a chronic procrastinator.

I love sad songs and days of sunshine. I love tv shows, movies and books that make me cry and I like strong wind that sweeps me off my feet.

I love how the French language sounds and I love burger king whoppers and usually they're what I always order. I love biology and learning about the world and how it's like a jigsaw where everything falls into place.

I love Christina Perri, Birdy, Maroon 5, Paramore, Florence and the Machine, Sia, Jason Walker, Taylor Swift, The Pretty Reckless, and then all the chart toppers like Kesha and Katy Perry.

I love feeling as if I have lots of friends and I love putting a smile on peoples faces. I love thinking that one day I can make a difference in the world and that my small, insignificant being can change some people's lives for the better.

I love days where my handwriting is neat (in my standards) and I love colours. I wish I didn't need sleep so I could get more things done everyday, but at the same time I love the relief of laying in a soft bed at night when I'm really tired.

I love Vampire Diaries and I love shows and things that I can fangirl over with other friends. I love sunsets and I absolutely adore the stars viewed from the countryside away from the city lights and would give nearly anything to go back to Kahunui, just for the stars.


I don't even know why I started writing this.

OMeGle

i wrote a shitlong post on tumblr about the last vampire diaries episode. if you're bored and want to read that heres the link: HI!

i also did a voice meme, if you care: HELLO!

OKAY so last niight was fun haha. Basically, I went on omegle video and aimed to make as many people smile as I could. IT WAS SUCCESSFUULLL!

this guy was lolz and kept giving me weird looks hahahaha. i barely remember what i was saying to him cuz he was like, one of the last pple i talked to.

and this guy was 18 and from germany and he was really hot. but then he asked me to flash him my bewbs and i was like no and he disconnected and i was liek :(

this guy was an italian pornstar called luca. CRAZY i know right?!!?!?! LOL but he was really nice (AND HOT) and i was bugging him with questions about his ...uh.... industry. IT'S NOT EVERY DAY YOU MEET A PORNSTAR. I WAS TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THE SITUATION LOLOL. Apparently when they film, it's just like a normal movie and shit. And most of the time the girls are bitches so it's not very uh... fun. and he didnt like, whip out his dick or anything, BUT HE DID STAND UP AND EVEN THOUGH HE WAS WEARING PANTS HIS BONER WAS LIKE, FUCKING MASSIVE. i was like.... dude, is that even natural D: he cant wear jeans cuz his dick is too big. O_O poor guy. hahahaha

he kept going "hey you could be a pornstar" and i'd be like -___-  no.

this guy said he was in al qaeda looool. THIS WAS SO FUNNY, okay, so he was REALLY REALLY SERIOUS and i kept smiling really big and being a stupid cunt and so he did this REALLY ADORABLE SMILE AND I WAS PISSING MYSELF LAUGHING cuz he was sooo serious and then his smile was like, a cute cherub smile!!!




and this turk guy (i dont have a photo of him) was cool until he whipped out his dick lmfao.

You: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Stranger: hi
You: are u in al qaeda?
Stranger: noooo
Stranger: you
You: im just joking
You: no im in the chinese mafia
Stranger: ı am turk mafia
You: holy shit wouldnt want to mess with u then
You: hey im the mob boss tho
You: so
Stranger: you chına
You: no im not china
Stranger: where
You: im aussie (lol i know i lied)
Stranger: are you child
You: no im 64 years old
You: i look good for my age
Stranger: no 15
You: HOW DID U GUESS
You: OMG
You: UVE GOT A SUPERPOWER
You: okay i'll guess ur age
Stranger: you are young
You: hmmmmmm
Stranger: very young
You: 31?
Stranger: ı am 34 years
You: LOOKIN GOOD FOR UR AGE POPS
You: got any kids?
Stranger: can you show me
You: show you what
You: PLEASE DONT END UP BEING A PERV
Stranger: stand up
You: CMON
Stranger: maybeeee
You: NOOOOOOOOOO
You: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
You: DONT BE A PERV
You: CMON
You: U SEEM LIKE A NICE GUY
You: NO
You: PLEASE DONT FLASH ME UR DICK
You: I HAD SUCH GOOD FIRST IMPRESSIONS OF YOU
You: IM ONLY 15
You: HAVE MERCY!!!!!!!1
Stranger: noooooooooooo
Stranger: ı dont
Stranger: show to you
You: good!
Stranger: fisrt you
You: NO!
You: NO
Stranger: ok
You: NO!
You: NO
You: DONT U DARE
You: CMON
Stranger: seeee
You: I THOUGHT U WERE NICE
Stranger: youuu
You: please
You: GOD
You: NO N
You: NO
You: STOP IT
You: I THOGUHT U WERE NICE
You: IM GONNA DISCONNECT
You: U WERE SO COOL
You: CMON DUDE
You: DONT RUIN IT
You: I ASKED IF U HAD KIDS
You: OH GOD
You: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
You: I HATE YOU
You: I DONT LIKE THIS STRIP TEASE
You: UR GROSS
You: IM DISCONNECTING
You: BE ASHAMED
You: IM NOT EVEN LOOKING AT THE SCREEN ANYMORE
You: GOD!
You: U SUCK
You: PUT IT AWAY
You: PUT IT AWAY
You: PUT IT
You: AWAY
You: GO
You: TAKE
You: IT
You: I DONT WANT IT
You: IHATE YOU
You: IM DISCONNECTING
You: GET A JOB
You: STOP BEING MEAN
You: CMON
You: TURKEY MAN
You: 34 YEAR OLD TURKEY MAN
You: UR BETTER THAN THIS
You: okay thank you
You: that was mean
Stranger: youuuuuuuu
You: okay do a peace sign now
You: do peace sign!
Stranger: can you
Stranger: show
You: PEACE SIGN
You: NO
You: NO
Stranger: to me
You: STOP IT
You: STOP BEING A PERV
You: CMON BE A COOL GUY
You: CMON LOOK HOW NICE I AM
Stranger: ok baby
You: PEACE SIGN BRO
Stranger: you very little
You: AND SILLY FACE
You: im not little im just having fun
Stranger: ı am go
You: NO
Stranger: ok bye
You: DO PEACE SIGN
You: FIRST
You: THEN GO
Stranger: now
You: THROW THEM DEUCES UP
You: WHATS 2 +2 ?
Stranger: youuuu
You: BYE
You: YOU DA MAN
Stranger: ok
You: NOW GO FLASH UR PENIS ELSEWHERE
You: BYE BYE NOW MR 34 YEAR OLD TURK


there was this guy called steve 29 from UK and he didnt show me his face the WHOLE TIME WE WERE TALKING (and it was for aaaaaaaages) so i was just talking to a torso and arms for like, an hour. he was all like "you can see any part of my body" and i was like "k ur face" and he's like "except that" so i was like "I WANNA SEE YOUR BIG TOE!" and it was lolz cuz he actually showed me his big toe. and then i mocked the english rugby team. omg i cant even remember what else we were talking about >>;;

people kept asking me to show them boobs so i was like 'lol k' if they'd been talking me for ages and showed them this poster of nicki minaj:

and theyd be like NOOO so i'd be like oh okay are u into this shit then?:

^ la taylor lautner doin duh blue steel face. LOOOOL

there was also this brazillian guy and he and his penis were there to greet me first and i was all like NO NO PENIS PLEASE! and cuz i was being fucking hilarious me, he stopped doing his shit and sat down and talked hahaha. i was talking to him about francisco lachowski (i spelt it right!) and even though he was nice, he had to use a translator so it took ages for him to reply so i said byebye and left.

everytime someone was jacking off in front of the camera i would just be like "get a job" or "get a girlfriend" and they'd always disconnect. HAHAAAAAAAAAAA ooh sensitive, are we?

i made so many pple lol teehee. it made me feel good about myself. everyone was liek "lol ur funny" and i was like ehehe thank you. AND A COUPLE PPLE THOUGHT I WAS 19+ AND I WAS LIKE WOAH WUT MAYBE I SHUD START TRYING TO GET INTO CLUBS!

anyways that was fun.

i bought a 'bullshit' stamp

ME GUSTA

(from typo) took me ages to decide between a BULLSHIT stamp, an OMG stamp and a WTF stamp hahaa.

im going around stamping it onto all surfaces i can find. :D

oh and, as you can see in the background of that photo, i STILL HAVENT FINISHED RENOVATING MY POSTER WALL GRRR

other crap i found on my photobooth (or webcam camera whatever its called):

this omelet was soo good oi.

gotta go read brain bree stuff and do french homework bye.

did my nails

 

like a boss!

Did the whole 'pour two types of nail polish into some kinda small dish (it doesnt even need sides, i just used a piece of aluminium foil...  the nail polish isnt too liquidy so it doesnt spill out), swirl it a bit with a toothpick. dip nails into the nail polish mixture. (a bit is gonna go on your skin, but you can wipe that off with remover afterwards). coat with two layers of clear nail polish.

also....

Girlfriend magazine Nov 2009, Dolly magazine Oct 2011

WTF?!?!?! Dolly totally ripped off GF wuuuut. guess that's what happens when you use the same picture as another magazine for your cover...

And this month, both Dolly Mag and GF mag had Selena Gomez as their covergirl (different pictures though)

and I dont like Selena Gomez very much and saw both of them and was like -___-" ugh. and both dolly and gf this month had a big "100" somethingsomething something article on their cover in the same place lol. awkward. I only bought the Dolly this week though cuz I cant afford two magazines at once haha.

lol my holidays are so fucking eventful. post about maria's leaving party coming soon... if i can be bothered.