LOLWTF? UMMMMM. has someone been hitting the refresh button a couple too many times?
WOOHOO! GO WHOEVER YOU ARE!! :D
i was just saying to maria how stupid i am. so, i've got a maths exam tmrw and a french listening exam. ive got french reading/writing on tuesday and social studies. then, on wednesday i've got a day off, thursday i've got science in the morning and on friday i've got eng and art. all this time, i shud've just been studying maths, french and social studies, cuz i'll have plenty of time during the whole day wednesday to study science and whole afternoon/evening thursday to study english, cuz you cant really study for art anyway. AOJDF;SLDFSKDFN THIS IS SO RETARDED. WHY DIDNT I SEE THIS SOONER?
so i can use it as an excuse to watch modern family.
but not too soon. like, at 7, when it starts.
i painted my nails clear. i like it haha.
the blogger xiaxue isn't actually that pretty, i noticed. in michelle phans video before she put on the falsies she was pretty less-than-average looking. shows what falsies can accomplish, aye? i was like, totes jealous of her until i saw her without makeup. now it's kinda like, lol meh, i can look like that too.... without the plastic surgery.
i didnt do any studying on fri or saturday, and only did a little bit today cuz i woke up at 1pm and then had to go grocery shopping with my mum. i was walking around paknsave with my ssts essay in hand, quietly muttering to myself, haha. FML IM GONNA DIE OMG SOMEONE KILL ME BEFORE I HAVE TO FACE EXAMS.
So, NINA DOBREV (vampire diaries) is going to be in the movie "the perks of being a wallflower" alongside emma watson (harry potter) and she was in 'the roommate' with LEIGHTON MEESTER (gossip girl), CAM GIGANDET (burlesque, twilight), katerina graham (bonnie - vamp diaries) and aly michalka (hellcats). She's also going to be in "the killing game" with KELLAN LUTZ (twilight). Kellan Lutz is going to be in "love, wedding, marriage" with jessica szohr (vanessa on gossip girl). He's also going to be in 'immortals' with isabel lucas and joseph morgan (klaus off vamp diaries). As well as being in "guardians of luna" where he's working with booboo stewart (new moon- seth).Cam gigandet also worked with aly michalka in 'easy a' with emma stone and lisa kudrow and in 'the OC' with rachel bilson, who was in 'jumper' with kristen stewart. emma stone was also with mila kunis in 'friends with benefits' as well as justin timberlake. He was also in burlesque with kristen bell, who is the voice of 'gossip girl', and was in 'scream 4' with emma roberts. Leighton Meester is going to be in "Monte Carlo" with selena gomez and katie cassidy (juliet - gossip girl). She was in 'date night' alongside mila kunis, who was in Black swan, with natalie portman. later, natalie portman worked with ashton kutcher in 'no strings attached' and ashton kutcher used to work with mila kunis in 'that 70's show'. leighton was also in "country strong" with gwenyth paltrow (who was on glee) and worked with dianna agron, who was in 'i am number four' with and dated ALEX PETTYFER. alex pettyfer was in 'beastly' with vanessa hudgens who dated zac efron. zac efron was in 17 again with katerina graham as well as michelle tratchenburg (georgina- gossip girl) and matthew perry (friends) who used to work with lisa kudrow.alex pettyfer also dated emma roberts and was in 'wild child' with her, and emma roberts dated dave franco (scrubs) whos brother james franco was in 'date night' with mila kunis. Cory monteith (glee) is also going to be in monte carlo. IAN SOMERHALDER was in the movie 'how to make love to a woman' with krystn ritter who was in 'gossip girl' and 'what happens in vegas' - a movie ashton kutcher was also in. ian somerhalder worked with kelly hu in vamp diaries, who was in xmen2 (lady deathstrike) and worked with hugh jackman. hugh jackman works with evangeline lilly in 'real steel', and she was also on 'lost' with ian somerhalder. hugh jackman was in wolverine with ryan renolds, who was also in adventureland with KRISTEN STEWART. Ryan renolds is also in 'green lantern' with BLAKE LIVELY, who's in gossip girl, as well as 'paper man' with emma stone. Blake was also in 'accepted' with kellan lutz, and jonah hill. Kristen stewart was in adventureland with jesse eisenburg, who was in social network with justin timberlake, andrew garfield, and malese jow (anna on vamp diaries). Andrew garfield is going to be in 'the amazing spiderman' with emma stone, and malese jow was in 'unfabulous' with emma roberts. she goes out with steven r mcqueens character on VD, and he is in piranha 3d with jessica szhor. kristen stewart was also in 'on the road' with amy adams, who was in 'enchanted' with patrick demsey, who worked with eric dane and katherine heigl in greys anatomy, and eric dane was in burlesque. Katherine heigl was in 'knocked up' with jonah hill and seth rogen, who was in 'pineapple express' with james franco. Jonah hill was in 'get him to the greek' with russell brand. Ashley greene who worked with kristen stewart (twilight) also worked with tom felton (harry potter) in 'the apparition' as well as sebastian stan (carter- gossip girl). She's also in "LOL: Laughing out loud" with miley cyrus, who was in 'hannah montana: the movie', a film katerina graham was in. KatG works with Paul wesley (vamp diairies) who was in 'killer movie' with leighton meester and russell brand. russell brand was in 'arthur' with jennifer garner, who was in 'juno' with ellen page, who was in 'whip it' with drew barrymore, who was in 'going the distance' with leighton meester.
OMG IT WAS SO HARD TO STOP.
wikipedia, you're awesome.
God was all like "i guess i might as well give them a pretty sunset before i fuck em all over tomorrow." or something. he probably said it more regally though.
lalalala these photos dont do the sunset no justice :( i had to put the saturation way up for them to seem more like thing. btw, all the greyish pink parts of those clouds were like, candyfloss pink.
i dont think we're all gonna die tomorrow though. we better not. i spent all today studying, and tomorrow i'll be at choir workshop for majority of the day. I DONT WANNA DIE THAT WAY.
holy shit. i just revisited my old open diary page and read my oldest post on there. hahahaha ohh the times when i used the word "fugger". and "da". and "wif". and "bisshy".
AND OMG LOL:
"I was on msn with this guy called josh and he used 2 be my crush but like, we're all guds now. But the fing is, talking 2 him just made me realise how cool he is. He goes to Kings which is like, St Cuth's Boyfriend School! So, i dunno. Focusing on my studies! RAR!"
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. omg trust me thats not even the funniest one.
also reading about when i hung out with paulina in city. wow. that feels like an eternity ago. it's kinda sad cuz i'm reading the slow destruction of my friendship with kp&c back in yr8.
omg reading this stuff about josh is really really embarrassing hahahahhaha.
yeah im not even censoring it because 1. he doesnt read my blog, 2. even if he did, who cares, cuz this was in the past.
i kinda want to copy and paste it here cuz its hilarious, but nah.
btw, the title of this post is from the last sentence in the last post of my open diary. fitting, huh?
sometimes i really hate labels, you know? especially if a day comes when that label doesnt define what you are with that person anymore and it's a negative change. I used to have a best friend AAAGES ago, and it would be weird if she were reading this, but we drifted apart. we didn't talk for about three years... at all! but for some reason she still thought we were best friends, which of course, was awkward, because I had kinda already replaced her. It sounds bad, but it's the harsh reality. you can't call someone your 'best' friend when you're practically strangers.
i realised today that i value loyalty. and reliability, i guess? i feel kind of awkward writing this, because I dont want any of it to come back and bite me in the ass, like, when i wrote how i felt in a situation about a year ago in a blogpost and it was brought up in a recent argument. but yeah, i was pretty hurt today. you know when you kinda expect to always partner up with somebody, and then you realise that NO ONE (including that person) wants to partner up with you? And you're just standing there, all frickin rejected and shit, awkwardly waiting for a partner. writing this, i kinda just had an epiphany that i treat one of my friends this exact way. in our class, we're a friendship group of three, and we always have to partner up, which leaves the other girl alone. that's pretty selfish of me, come to think of it. i was pretty selfish today as well. i didn't care what happened to the other people, i just wanted it to happen my way. sorry, i'm trying to be as vague as i can atm. like i said... future bite marks in the ass suck. anyway, i also realised that when it comes to a situation when someone just doesn't want to partner up with you - like they look away and change the subject when you ask them- that there really isn't any point in forcing them to go with you. like i learnt today, it's not fun when they're your forced partner. it's awkward and it's just stupid. fuck it, i'm worth more than that. really, if you don't want to be with me (lol that sounds so bf/gf but its not), if you prefer someone else to me, then i'm not gonna force you to change your mind. from now on, do what you want to do, because this label we stuck on our friendship apparently doesnt actually mean anything to you, like it does to me, then i'm not gonna continue calling us that anymore. but you know what? this totally applies to bf/gf's too. admittedly, i dont have much experience on the subject (lol i hate my life) but girls, if the guys not interested, dont force yourself on them! if he likes you, he'll text you back, kay? it's easier said than done though. you're too caught up in how great this guy is, how you're so perfect for each other, [or in my situation: how you're so hurt that you're being replaced and (deep down) you want to prove that you're more fun than that other person] that you forget to keep your dignity intact (although, luckily, there are always friends there to tell you just to stop frickin texting him!)
.... changing the subject,
.... i've barely started studying.
OHHHHHMYYGOOODDDD III AMMMM SOOOO FUUUCKKKEEEDDDDDDDD.
when you take out the circle lenses. wipe off the foundation, and the eyeliner, and the mascara.
take out the extensions, slip out of the heels change into sweatpants and hoodies and old tees.
when you log off of facebook with all your flirty wallposts and fifty million pictures of just yourself and your relationship statuses
that change every week
you're shallow. i don't know you very well but from what i've heard and seen and read you seem like a nice girl i don't know why i immediately just never liked you.
guess its because to me, it all seems fake the clothes the make up the ♥ 's after every comment
the way you hide behind your computer screen when you are a mouse in real life
just kinda feel like writing right now. just gonna write about anything that comes to my mind, so... yeah.
well, we got our exam timetables today, so that's exciting (!) I've got social studies on tuesday morning, french in the afternoon, nothing on wednesday, science on thursday morning, english on friday morning and art on friday afternoon. 4 day weekend after that though! i havent actually started studying yet, which... is bad. i guess. fuck im tired.
i had a basketball game today, which i wasn't actually planning on going to, but they were short on players and i thought i didnt have a ride but turns out that the school van sends us back as well. huh, someone couldve told me earlier. I guess i played better than expected for my first time ever playing a proper basketball game, considering i was expecting to like, never touch the ball once and just feel real shit. maybe i was just in a positive mood or something, idk. it was pretty fun, even though i was running around so much that i cud taste blood in my mouth. i had netball training right before the game, and got pulled out of it to go to basketball, which was like, stressful and tiring. fuck, im always so tired nowadays. meilin was running up and down the court like a speeding bullet haha.
so, vampire diaries episode. WHO WATCHED IT? spoilers ahead, btw. okay, how fucking crazy was that episode? i was legit sobbing my eyes out, noisily. i feel so damn sorry for elena and jeremy - everyone that looked after them/parental figures died! when jeremy said "i still have you" to elena i was like ADFPAKSDL;FAKSLDKFSDF MY CREYYSS!! and at the funeral scene, it was same reaction times 10. dear john (gilbert) - RESPECT MAN. RESPECT FOR YOU. and poor jenna :( her death was unnecessary. ELIJAH U MOFO UR WORD MEANS NOTHING ANYMORE.
new fave song:
she's only 14! and her song got onto the vampire diaries soundtrack. INSPIRED.
lol me and joanna are doing a duet thingy for fun and later for the talent quest with this song:
i really suck at it. im doing a harmony haha. i suck at harmonies.
i'm reading to junior school kids at lunchtimes this year as my librarian duty! yaaaay!!! funnest job ever!
speaking of reading, right now i'm reading unbearable lightness by portia de rossi. have i already mentioned this in a previous blog post? idk, but its really good. i have to read it on my computer though cuz i'm like, number 94 on the waiting list at auckland public libraries for it, and the book is like 40 bucks. fml. i'm also reading we need to talk about kevin but i'm not really into it. i thought it'd be nineteen minutes-esquey but so far its just kevins mother writing random, unrelated shit that i dont care about to her ex husband. GET TO THE KILLING!
i was having a good day today until i got to maths and suddenly, i got real moody. like, hungover moody and everyone seemed to be pissing me off and talking really loud and i was like I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE WITHOUT DOING MATHS. but then maths ended and i was fine again LOL WTF.
WE'RE DOING PAINTING TMRW IN ART ZOMG IM SO EXCITED! I DONT EVEN KNW WHY I'M EXCITED BECAUSE NOW IM PROBLY GONNA PAINT SHIT, BUT WHATEVS CUZ PREVIOUS PAINTINGS OF WHAT WE'RE DOING LOOK REALLY COOL SO IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT YAY.
oh yeah, and on like, monday, i gave my tie to yujie for scholars assembly and then she gave it to joanna who gave it to lizzi and lizzi totally forgot to give it to me the whole period that we had art together that day, and today she gives me this manky, been-in-the-wash fuzzy one that DEFINITELY isnt mine. i dont even see how she gave me the wrong tie? like, bro, how can that even be accidental? why wud u even take it out of ur bag.... not exactly i can go up to her and say "YOU STOLE MY TIE AND GAVE ME UR OLD ONE GRRRR" so, yeah. LIZZI IF UR READING THIS I WANT MY BLOODY TIE.
oh, and for my brothers birthday, i gave him 20 bucks that was tucked in this little open evenlopey thing i made that i made into a shape of a t-shirt and it had a label saying hallensteins (cuz hes a manager at hallensteins) and "$20 off!" cuz i gave him 20 bucks haha. and on the tshirt it was like "happy birthday! i know i annoy you a lot but that's cuz im ur little sister and its in the manual". i also went to his uni graduation which was incredibly boring and kinda like school prize giving but better cuz i didnt have to behave or sit still and i cud play on my phone :)
okay its 11 and i have choir tmrw. raaaaaaaaah choir. even though i dont like going to the practices and dread it, i always feel pretty happy after choir cuz i like singing, so it lifts my mood! this year, im doing basketball, netball, badminton, choir, debating, rezo, duke of ed, and librarian this year and i really enjoy all of em except for debating. XD it means im always really busy though... :/ and maybe duke of ed, but the service stuff so far have been pretty fun. i went on sunday to waiheke to weed and shit with jade (HI JADE, IF UR READING THIS!) and cathee and quite a few other people. i'm pretty happy cuz i made friends with new people and we were all acting like dicks (as jade puts it) and made a 'super six!' group (cuz there were six of us). lol yeah. haha, everytime i pulled out a big weed with a big root, i'd be like, VICKY THE CONQUERER!!! and hurled it into the bushes XDD. soon enough, a couple of people started following my trend LOL
OKOKOKOKOK GOING TO SLEEP NOW. TIREEEDDD! been 45 minutes of writing haha. practically a fucking essay. english teacher wud be proud....
I had a really vivid dream last night. It was of me flying, but it wasn't a superpower or anything. I kept telling everyone it was a parachute. People asked me "what's that?" and I'd answer "It's a parachute!!" even though I had nothing connected to me and I flew by flapping my arms. The earliest part I remember of the dream was me trying to get over this big gate thing, and seeing Mrs whatshername from yr7 who was the teachers aid with this boy in a mechanical wheelchair which was in my yr7 class, and I asked them to open the gate for me. I'm not sure, but I think they said no, and I ended up having to try really hard to fly over the gate. Then I was in MRIS and I saw a couple of old friends and ended up flying into this dimly lit room where I saw Sueyeon on this couch.
It seems pretty stupid and boring when I type it out but it was a really interesting dream, haha.
It's my brother's birthday tomorrow. I went shopping with my mum today at St Lukes for a present for him but didn't find anything :( In fact, I ended up going clothes shopping, haha. Saw Aimee there with her mum - twice! When I got back home I realised every item of clothing had blue on it XD
On Wednesday- Thursday, had a sleepover with Sueyeon. Watched Suckerpunch (which was really good! although the ending was really depressing), watched a bit of twilight, and then watched all the alex reads twilight videos (ahaha), morning glory, eclipse, and the kings speech. My cup exploded! It was so freaky! I don't see how it even happened! I picked it up and it burst into frickin pieces!
Didn't go to the megazone thing. Feel like I shouldve gone though. Oh well, saved 40 bucks.
Anyone watch Vampire diaries? Episode kinda pissed me off. WTF Damon?! I'm incredibly pissed at you right now. The writers are making it really hard for Delena to ever happen. And Jenna?! Shiiiieeet.
