You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.
there are some people that are naturally at ease when in a situation where they are with people they don't know very well. they make friends easily. it's just... uncomplicated.
I, however, generally turn into an awkward, stumbling, im-sorry-i-think-ive-forgotten-how-to-use-words kind of mess. especially if it's someone who is 'cool' or like, intimidating idk.
at least, that's how i am when i have no support system around. but it's strange because when i do have that support system of friends - even if it is just one person- everything is so much easier and i feel so much more relaxed.
like, wow, coolest fucking story ever vicky. you're not special. this isn't a revelation.everyone feels like this, most of the time. please stop boring us.
i am boring me.
some people are hilarious in real life. and then on the internet they are just so... lost. and cringeworthy.
and then some people are hilarious online, but are ridiculously awkward in reality.
i don't even know which one is better anymore.
technologically driven society, i guess.
wow i couldn't spell technologically just then
technoligcally technoligilly technlacilly technolalalacly technadkf;adf;kly
thanks spell check
you're welcome vicky
if you're wondering why i bothered to make this incredibly pointless post
it's because i am procrastinating. as usual.
havent even started studying maths or french. at all. i'm so screwed for maths. if i don't get excellence in this internal, i can't get maths endorsed this year. fun, right?
idk sometimes i just want to curl up in a ball under my covers and just stay there for a whole day. watch the light filter in through the gaps of the curtains, then watch it fade away with the sunset.
pretty sure this is a normal feeling to get when you are a teenager.
pretty sure feeling fat is a normal feeling too.
oooooooh~~ no vicky don't bring over the pity party.
or the "you're not faaaaaat~~~" encouragers
lol please it's not a call for attention, it's an honest musing from my mind.
i am, however, feeling much more healthier lately.
(excluding today and yesterday where i got those $5 kfc lunch packs yesterday and ate a whole bag of pods and got a $5 bk whopper jr deal today shhhhhhh fuck cheap delicious food)
mondays i usually have netball practice in the morning, pilates afterschool (which starts at 4 and for the half an hour beforehand i 'train' in the school gym) and then swimming right after that.
tuesdays i sometimes have umpiring (does that count as exercise idk)
wednesdays i have badminton
saturdays i have netball
in addition to p.e. right now being horrendous since we're doing a WHOLE TERM of rogaine ugh?!
idk it's a lot more activity than i usually have. and then on days i dont have organized sport, i try to squeeze in this workout:
and according to jade this one's very good but i haven't personally tried it:
yeah you're welcome. WHEN U START FITTING IN DEM SIZE 8 JEANS U REMEMBER TO MENTION VICKY XU IN YOUR PRAYERS BEFORE BEDTIME.
got my mum to do the bootyshakin workout with me once hahaha. comedic gold.
oh yeah, speaking of umpiring (way up there), i did my first umpiring session a week ago and wow did i feel like a bitch throughout the whole game. crushing little year 7 hearts. i think i made a girl cry.
"the whistle makes me their god" - as spoken by a certain dean winchester on a certain supernatural show.
not feeling too bad at school right now. apart from maths and maybe french I feel like I'm coping pretty well in class and all the material seems relatively easy.
nek minnit exam results??????? idk
all i know is i want that double science prize at the end of the year so sosososo bad.
(shh vicky it's not orthodox to admit your goals on the internet when everyone knows theres a slim as shit chance of you achieving them.)
YEAH FUCK YOU SOCIETY..... from vicky.
*unattractive snigger*
inside joke dw
wow is it already 1:40am? this is why i shouldn't take 4 hour naps during the day. apparently i snore when i nap. yeah, well, i probably snore when im tired and when im tired i nap SO.
i am so looking forward to this weekend.
expect pictures.
not on facebook though.
photos that are posted on facebook that shouldn't be on facebook and everyone who posts these kinds of pictures lose my respect like ~that.
(only applies to people under 18 tbh)
(and only if you're a shithole)
- photos of you blatantly posing while holding alcohol up like wow u are a hard cunt
- photos of you macking on your boyfriend/girlfriend bro have u heard of class ESPECIALLY IF YOU'VE ONLY BEEN 'GOING OUT' FOR LIKE, 3 DAYS.
- omg speaking of that
- PEOPLE WHO POST STUPID INDIRECT STATUSES ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY "~MISS" SOME STUPID CRUSH OR LOVE THEM SO MUCH OR CHEESY SHIT THAT MAKES ME WANT TO THROW UP LIKE UGH SHUT UP
- people who send me temple run /other game requests (i am srs if i get another one of those i am looking u up in the college list and I WILL BE HIDING UNDER YOUR BED AT NIGHT)
- people in general
hehe bcz of tumblr the 'insults' #asshole #homo #bastard and #faggot all have positive connotations to me now.
wow misha collins is such an #asshole look at him fucking prancing around doing charity work in haiti who do u think u are fucking perfect human being #bastard dammit jared padalecki u are not allowed to be around babies wtf u have a baby now why would u do that ughhhhhhhhhh
wow one direction wow you are just beautiful little #faggots i hate you so much why stop stupid zayn u are a #homo stop with your blatant eye sexing with harry no wait louis why are u such a sassy piece of rainbow shit FUCK U
ok sorry i got a little carried away
how do u blog
i cant remember
i suck
