mockingjay

i am having the most painful response to reading a book i have ever experienced.

the only other sobs (caused by reading) that could rival the ones i just produced would be when i read emancipation proclamation (twilight fanfiction) in the scene when edward leaves bella. that was pretty ugly.

but even so, those sobs were like, a momentary thing. i got over it.

from page 450 -- when buttercup and katniss reunited and katniss finally said "she's not coming back" and "shes dead!" -- to the last word of the 'acknowledgements' from the author, i was just full on non-stop sobbing. no, not crying. not a couple of tears. full on, body-racking, hysterical sobs. non stop fountain of tears.

and throughout all three books i could never decide if i shipped katniss/peeta more or katniss/gale, but then the ending was just so beautiful (and induced another super powerful round of tears) that i kinda hated gale for a bit and decided katniss/peeta was meant to be.

ugh i have so many feelings right now.

mockingjay was just miserable to read. i felt super depressed for most of the book, which is probably what caused the mass explosion of waterworks at the end. that doesn't mean mockingbird wasnt good - cuz it was very good.  .... it was just ... emotionally draining...?

like, it revoked a sense of 'there was no more hope in the world. kill yourself.'

yeah. that feeling.

just....



....everything fucking HURTS.







also, it was 4.45am when i got to the part where the tears started, so they had to be silent tears.



i'm still kinda deciding on what my opinion is on the ending to the series. i mean, it was never gonna be a happily ever after, and it's not like everything could go to plan. people had to die, shitstorms had to happen. i didnt very much like the whole katniss-is-pretty-much-coocookerazzy thing or the fact that i felt katniss was so alone without prim, her mum, her dad or gale.

but i understood why it had to happen.

it feels like reading the ending to this book has opened my eyes to the cruelties of the world and i kinda feel like giving up on humanity.



basically,

boggs death: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
finnicks death: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
prims death: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:




"you love me. real or not real?"
"real."

FOREVER CRYING. NO EMOTICON FOR THIS FEELING. I AM DEAD INSIDE.









i dont want to sleep.





[edit] last night, after writing this post, i was lying in bed and i realised that the whole story started with Katniss wanting to save Prim and volunteering as tribute instead of her, but in the end Katniss couldn't save Prim and she was killed. ;akjdf;skdfjslkdf everything hurts.



seriously if you havent read Hunger Games you really need to. NOW.



[edit#2] i just re-read this post and realised how pathetic i am now in the light of day hahahahaha. not deleting though cuz this post reflected my true reaction to finishing the series and i want to keep it.

boxing day

lack of presents TOTALLY made up for today!!!!!
it was like a friggin battlefield in cotton on and factorie.

in total, today i got:

• $20 SHOWER RADIO (woohoo $10 cheaper!!!!), bond and bond
• $15 white jumper, cotton on body (fave!)
• $10 pink jumper, factorie
• $10 pinstripe shorts, cotton on
• $10 tangerine + white striped top, cotton on
• $8 pink racerback singlet, kmart
• 2 x $3 strings of fairy lights!!!!, kmart
• $10 nail buffer, kmart
• Free, 2x stripy socks (with the toe things!), aussie sox (i went up to say hi to sueyeons dad and he gave me socks and i was like OH NO DONT PLEASE ITS OKAY, DONT WORRY, MERRY XMAS but he forced them upon me hahaha)
• 2x $1.90 reese's peanut butter cups

isjdflksja;dfksadfsdf $92.80 worth of stuff. usually i can only really buy 2 or 3 items of clothing for $89 so YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this post is really for my own benefit hahahaha

last night, i swear someone spiked my drink or something cuz i went soo so high when i was playing monopoly with my fambam. i literally started laughing so hard (for no reason) that i was crying and near-pissing myself and it lasted like, 2 minutes. and the i lied on the floor with my head under the xmas tree staring at the flashing lights. yeah.

pretty sure someone slipped me some weed.

also MY FUCKING BROTHER STOLE JERUSALEM FROM ME AND TRADED IT WITH MY MUM AND I DIDNT REALISE TILL THE END OF THE GAME AND THEN WE (JOKINGLY) YELLED AT EACH OTHER FOR A FULL 5 MINUTES UNTIL MY DAD YELLED AT US TO STOP. 

how were everyones boxing day sales? :)

What if it was true, that all we thought was right, was wrong?

I came across a really really good band a couple nights ago. They're called Manchester Orchestra and omggggg I'm in love with them now.

also, if you havent heard Taylor Swift's new song on the Hunger Games Soundtrack, you really need to. 

so, my brother told me not to apply to cotton on, because apparently they have video cameras in the stores, and that the moment you start to go a little off task or like, bum off in any way, they call you up and they say "why aren't you doing work?" and you get reprimanded.

woah, intense. no thank you.

santa

so, i got my grandma to wake me up at 10:30am, I got up, preparing to go open xmas presents, went downstairs, saw my mum watching tv on the couch, went to her and fell asleep on her.

finally got up properly at 1pm hahahaha. waited for my dad to come home and for my brother to get outta his room, and we opened our presents.

I got the whiteboard and badge from Sueyeon, and guess what i got from my brother....

I FUCKING HAD A REALLY STRONG FEELING HE WAS GONNA GIVE ME HUNGER GAMES LOLOLOLOL. It's cuz I keep telling him to read it so he probably  thinks I'm obsessed over it even though I'm not but whatever I'm quite happy he gave me hunger games hahahaha. Thing is, I got Meilin the Hunger games for half the price he got it, and I *JUST* gave her the book yesterday.

and I got money from my parents lol.

anyway, my mum really liked the scent diffusion thingy and I think she thinks it was really expensive but really, it was 12 dorra hahahahha. My dad really liked the crepe thingy too which was surprising. my grandma has no idea how to work the design cube I made her lol pretty sure she's gonna break it soon.



I see everyone getting like, shitttons of things for christmas and I'm like >>;; people are getting phones and presents that are like, hundreds of dollars and I feel shitty and unloved haha.

But then again, for some people, christmas is a big deal, whereas I kinda get these 'present' things whenever I want/need them, not just at christmas time. Like, if I legit want to get those black chucks, I can just go out shopping with my mum (albeit, at sale time) and she'd probably just get them for me. So I shouldn't really feel jealous.

Sorry, I'm just reflecting.


ALTHOUGH DAMMIT NO ONE IS EVER GONNA GET ME A FUCKING FROG SHOWER RADIO!!!!!!!






need to get a jobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

a private number just called me and there was just rustling on the other end of the phone. either someone pocketdialled me, or THERE IS A SERIAL KILLER WAITING TO SLAUGHTER ME AND IS HIDING IN MY CLOSET.




OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD

if i mysteriously die SOMEONE TRACE THE PRIVATE NUMBER THAT CALLED MY PHONE OKAY?!

AVENGE MY DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas :)

tbh christmas isnt that big of a deal for my family lol.

previously today (or really, yesterday aka christmas eve) i went out at 8pm to get presents for my parents. yeah, i know i left it last minute, but i didn't really give it much thought. anyway, i was waiting for my bro to take me and i pretty much waited for 2 and something hours while he kept playing some fantasy football soccer game on his xbox with his friend. we finally went and i had planned to go to briscoes to buy one of those Sunbeam Eggo things AND THEY WERE FUCKING CLOSED AND I WAS SO SO SO UPSET :((((

and westfield was closed too. WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY?!?!

shouldnt they be open for last minute shoppers like me?!

anyway, we went to the warehouse which was thankfully still open, and i got for my parents a vanilla scent incense thingy idk what its called and instead of an Eggo, I got a Crepe maker hahahahhaa. 

Crepe maker? More like Crap maker.

i dont expect much from it rofl. it was $22 SCORE!

i got my brother a really pathetic present from pak n save. it was two bottles of powerade energy drink (not the sports drink) cuz he loves dat shit and i got him a lynx scrubby shower thing cuz there seems to be some kinda tradition between us getting each other shower/hygeine related presents YES THERE ARE SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES BEHIND THE PRESENTS.

before all that though, i went over to meilins house to give her back her shirt, give her her birthday present (which was on dec 4th.... what? i just got it from the mail!!) and get my makeup bag back from her. then i went to drop off sueyeons christmas card which looked like this:

im a fucking freak i know dont judge me i only have one picture of it okay

cathee left for china on friday so before she left i had to give her her bday present and her card and i dropped them off at her house.

i got her this journal...thing/notepad/sticknote god i dont even remember what it was. it was cute though. and i got her a Ravenclaw badge. and a pen which I kinda regret buying cuz it was inproportionally expensive and not even cute >B/

OKAY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! i wonder what presents i get tmrw hmmmm (the only present im really getting is from my brother and everyone else will probably only get me money lol)

i am an antisocial cunt

I mean, I have the option of going out but honestly I just can't be fucked.

Friends are like, you wanna hang out? and I'm like yeah sure
but honestly I'm kinda like ehhhhhhhhhhhh home, lazy, comfortable.

but at the same time I DO want to go out cuz it's fun and all being with friends  and I feel like I'm definitely gonna regret sleeping the day away every. single. day. by the end of the holidays, but I CAN'T STOP MYSELF.
I'm just so laazzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Haven't done any holiday studying for brain bee or otherwise
Can't even be bothered watching supernatural.

what's wrong with meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :((((



I got a sudden urge before to eat roasted marshmallows but since I don't have a campfire anywhere nearby, I thought a candle would suffice.

Now I'm worried that I'm gonna die from carbon monoxide poisoning. or cancer. there was a lot of burnt-ness.

and i leant over the candle and the little hairs at the edge of my forehead started burning and i was like SHIT SHIT SHIT cuz i heard the sizzling sound and now about 6 hairs are like, brown at the tips and curly. they look dipdyed lol












things i do when i'm on my period:

• sing "everybody hurts... everybody criesss" to myself at regular intervals
• randomly think every so often "THERE IS A CRIME SCENE IN MY PANTS"
• feel uncomfortable
• dread pooping
• stare at myself in the mirror and cry over the atrocity that is my face and body
• get sad over pimples
• yell at everyone in a 10metre vicinity
• eat nothing
• eat everything
• complain over lack of food
• sleep less
• complain more
• get super lazy
• wear sweats and baggy tshirts
• hate everything
• debate whether or not it's time to change pad/tampon
• worry about accidentally dying
• wonder whether or not I should do something productive
• do nothing productive
• realise that getting your period is supposedly 'best case scenario' aka not pregnant
• realise being a girl is fucking hard and unfair
• get penis-envy
• realise that THERE IS FUCKING BLOOD GUSHING OUT OF YOUR FUCKING VAGINA AND IT IS SUPPOSEDLY FUCKING NORMAL.
• feel fat
• feel tired
• get grossed out all the time especially when going toilet
• feel like dying

you know those girls who get squeamish at the sight of blood? I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW THAT IS EVEN POSSIBLE. do they faint and fall off the toilet everytime they get their time of month or something?! what?!?!?


sorry if there are any boys who read my blog.



lol jk no one reads my blog.



especially not guys.




(but if there are, i hope you learnt something today about the female thought process)

currently on my xmas wishlist:

the first couple are things i really really want

• black high top converses
• wreck this journal by keri smith
• a nail buffer (the four sided one that maria has that makes ur nails uber shiny)
• (frog) shower radio
• supernatural dvds (except for season 1) 
• memoirs of a geisha book
• summer clothes
• necklaces and summery/boho/layering bracelets
• any of the following men:
• jensen ackles
• ian somerhalder
• kellan lutz
• andrew garfield
• adam levine
• there are a lot more but i don't want to bore you
• tickets to florence and the machine concert
• a 1967 Chevy Impala (black)
• some paris eiffel tower poster art (like the stuff from typo) for my walls
• a boyfriend
• money
• more money
• a job
• an easy job that pays well
• money
• money
• MONEY
• MONEY
• MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aujourd'hui

So, it is 2am and my brother, mum, grandma and I have just gone to bed after playing Monopoly (which still isn't finished and will be continued on tomorrow morning). I WAS FUCKING WINNING AWW YEESS. It's funny though cuz at the start I was doing the worst, and I had barely any money all the time, and I kinda only just survived. But then I got the orange set by trading with my mum, and I got the dark blue set, and suddenly, it was a rags to riches story :) which is strange because monopoly is supposed to teach the player lessons of "the poor get poorer and the rich get richer". Before we ended for the night, my grandma insisted on finishing her turn, and landed on my dark blue Montreal (we have the 'world' version) which had a hotel, and she had to pay me $20 million. :DDDDDD

It was fucking hilarious omg. My brother landed on me, paid $11 million, and I'd go next and land on him and pay him $11 million. And I got free parking once which was like $12 million and I fucking did a loud victory circuit celebration thing around the lounge... at 1am.

I just realised no one cares but that monopoly game was friggin awesome.


anyway.





today, woke up at 10am, snoozed in bed until 10:45, took shower etc etc left for bus at 12:20 and met sueyeon at city at 12:50 (i was supposed to meet her at half past...)

it's nice to have a best friend like sueyeon. I think it might be a good thing that we don't go to the same school because honestly, it feels more special to see each other like, a couple times during the holidays so that we really make the most of it. And everytime we meet up it's like we never really parted, and I seem to have some of the funnest and funniest times with her, I can't explain it really. It's weird.


anyway, we went shopping for xmas presents for each other and eventually ended up in this shop called Iko Iko on K road and I dont really go on k road that often (except to visit your mum at work /wink/) so when we got there I was so lost and was like SUEEYEEONN WHEERE ARE WEEEE :(((((

so, we went on the city link bus to get there right and there were these two REALLY HOT FIREFIGHTER GUYS at the front of the bus and I think they might've been strippers even though they were wearing the legit firemen uniforms but OMG THEY WERE SO HOT akdf;alksdfsfd i tried to like, get a picture of them but 1. sueyeon kept restraining me from using my hands/taking my phone away and yelling/laughing "YOU'RE SO EMBARRASSSIIIINNGGGG", 2. my phone is dumb and has a loud beepy noise as well as a flash you cant turn off when you take the photo and 3. the firemen guys didn't turn around again for the whole duration of the trip :(

anyway, iko iko was SUCH AN ADORABLE SHOP. I got cathee's birthday present from there and also Sueyeons xmas present. Can't say what cathee's present is cuz she reads this blog, but Sueyeon's present (it's lame but she really really wanted it) was this mug that had a design on it like a scrabble letter piece with the number of points and stuff. like this one...

they have the friggin BEST badges in that shop but they were so expensive though! $3.40 for a small one i think and $6/7 for a big one. there were quite a few harry potter, big bang theory and doctor who ones. the harry potter ones were awesome. there were these"MAKE LOVE NOT HORCRUXES" and "save a broom, ride a weasley!" and "Dobby is a free elf" and house badges as well. there was a steve jobs one that said "iSad" with his face, and that one <-- with my fucking attractive face in it which i thought was pretty hilarious. Sueyeon got me a  "MAKE AWKWARD SEXUAL ADVANCES NOT WAR" badge that i fucking adore and will stick on my bag next year for school. 

Spent ages at whitcoulls before going to that shop as well buying Cathee's present and it ended up being this lame thing and i was like ugh vicky you suck but i like the stuff i bought her at iko iko.

Sueyeon needed to buy my present and she was planning on getting me a  frog shower radio thing (CUZ I REALLY REALLY WANT ONE) but it was different to the one we wanted and $30 :( but we went looking for it everywhere and ended up in the warehouse where we got distracted and started playing bop it (I FRIGGIN LOVE BOP IT).

BUT THEN WE WENT INTO THIS AISLE WHERE IT WAS LIKE ARTS AND CRAFTS AND THERE WERE FRIGGIN WHITEBOARDS FOR $15 AND I WAS LIKE *OMG* GET ME A FUCKING WHITEBOARD FOR MY ROOM AND SO SHE GOT ME A WHITEBOARD AND I AM VERY VERY STOKED WITH MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT!!!!!! it's pretty big (that's what she said) about 60cm x 40cm and i will put it in the centre of my poster wall so that i can draw shit and people can write shit WOOHOO!!!

omg that whiteboard was a bitch to take home on the bus hahahahha.

i'm not allowed to open the gift till xmas :(



oh yeah I'm desperately looking for a job right now, so if you guys know of any jobs in city/newmarket/st lukes or in mt roskill TELL ME CUZ I NEED SOME MONEY!!! I went around today at random shops just asking the shop attendants whether there were any job positions open and they were all like nup and i was like :(

if i get really even more desperado i think i'll just have to go work at the burger king near my house. although i dont even think they're hiring :( :( :(

my dad wont let me work at the restaurant. i asked him and he was like "uhhh why dont u go work at another restaurant" and i was like DAD I CAN SEE WHEN I'M NOT WANTED >:/








fuck i just realised im probably gonna have my period during the beach party thing next week and for new years UGHHHHHHHHHHH LIFE SUCKS NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO SWIM A;FJA;DKLFAJSDKLFJS'ODFSKLDFJS;AKDFJASKDF





my internets pretty much capped.









fuck.

this is why i don't have a boyfriend

I just moved my finger to go itch my eye but it moved too fast and i ended up poking my eye really hard and my eyelashes caught my finger and it got stuck for a second and now my eye hurts.





also,

supernatural: the best cast.

Just walked into the living room where mum was curled up on the couch watching tv. I look at the screen and it's the chinese tele version of winnie the pooh, so thinking she was just watching it because there was nothing else on, I switch the channel, when she suddenly yells:

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! I WAS WATCHING THAT! I WANT TO KNOW WHY RABBIT'S CROPS ARENT GROWING!!!!"

une célébrité avec une barbe et sourcils mince.... c'est qui?

i was about to go slightly insane from watching too much supernatural, so i decided to get my creative jucies flowing and i thought i might as well paint since i have paints from art this year.

oh btw i think this was the FIRST TIME i've ever tried properly painting a face!! 

I TRIED TO DRAW THE SHADOW ON THE LEFT SIDE OF HER FACE BUT FOR SOME REASON IT LOOKS LIKE A BEARD OMG.

and because of the eyebrows, i came to the conclusion that this doesnt really resemble the celebrity i was drawing, but really just looks like an unshaven drag queen....

soooo, time for you to guess who it is (leave a comment with who you thought it was!):

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...

...

...

...

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er yeah. kristen stewart. hahahaha....

i dont think i will bother drawing her hair because i will most likely mess it up badly (even worse than it is atm)

oh btw dont u think from the nose up it totally looks like ashley greene!??!

there is no meaning to this post.

EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH SUPERNATURAL UGHHH SO GOOD

i guess the reality is

choir is that one thing that I've always had since I was like, in primary. I've always joined it and as much as I complain about it, I like choir and I like singing in a choir. I've always thought I was good at choir, and I thought I was good at singing.

So when you get rejected saying you're not good enough to get into choir, it's kind of a blow to the confidence gonads.

Yeah, yeah, I can still go join BWS but that's just going to be the reject choir, and if I thought this year was bad, then next year's BWS is gonna be hell, since there wont be any good people in the choir, unlike this year where there were still a couple who were pretty good.

of course, I thought i was one of the people who were pretty good.

guess not.

another thing is, choir's always there in my list of extracurriculars, and now that I havent gotten into SA, idk if i actually want to participate in BWS, so that means there won't be a choir in my extracurriculars. Even if I am in BWS, i'll just look like a pathetic little girl who can't actually sing so she has to join BWS.

and you know, I've stopped doing piano, and this is after my grade 8 exam which I only got a meager pass in, whereas now, all my friends have done grade 8 and have been getting distinctions and high distinctions and while I actually am happy for them, it makes me feel like even more of a failure.

I mean, I didn't even get into talent quest this year, so maybe I'm just getting signs left right and centre saying that I should quit singing. Spend the time and money used on it on something like piano instead.  

But I'm not good at piano either, so....

I honestly can't catch a break. Everywhere I look, I'm just not good enough. Not good enough to win Top Academic Achievement, not good enough to get into saints, not good enough at singing, not pretty enough, not tall enough, not good enough at songwriting, piano, maths, writing, tumblring, and ffs, not good enough at being a good person even.

you know how much it sucks always being second place or always being the loser?

I'm really more embarrassed than anything else about this, but being the narcissistic whore that I am, I feel the need to complain about it so that people will say "OH, DONT WORRY, YOU'RE ACTUALLY GOOD AT SINGING" or some shit like that when it's not true. So, if you think i'm seeking attention, you're probably right. (just in case u didn't think i didn't already know...)

Bottom line is:

I thought I was good at something, but apparently I'm not.

Welcome to my life.

fuck my life

just finished watching season 4 finale of supernatural.

i am sobbing and i have goosebumps all over and my heart is shattered.
how the fuck am i supposed to go to sleep WHEN THE MOTHERFUCKING APOCALYPSE JUST STARTED!?!?!

RUBY THAT LYING CONNIVING MANIPULATIVE HORRIBLE SON OF A BITCH I AM SO ANGRY.

AND I FUCKING THOUGHT THAT ANGELS WERE SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD GUYS BUT NOOOO THEY HAD TO FUCK EARTH OVER AS WELL.

and now lucifer is out but dean has to kill him cuz he swore to the angels BUT HOW THE FUCK DOES ONE KILL THE DEVIL!?!?


forever crying.


everything hurts.




this is not healthy.





(does anyone here watch supernatural? i desperately need someone to fangirl with...)

2011

I think I can safely say that 2011 has been the best year I've had so far.

I guess there have been other good years - Year 6 and 5 hold lots of great memories for me. I can't really remember anything except for odd random memories from before Year 4. There were aspects in Year 7 that were kind of horrible for me: I didn't like MRIS at all and thought my time was being wasted at school everyday since I never actually learnt anything and the extracurriculars were shit, etc. The friends were alright, even though I'm not close to any of my old friends there anymore. Year 9 form class was pretty lame cuz we didn't even know each other. I got close with Jade and Maria and Maggie and stuff in Year 9 though, which was pretty good. I loved social studies and maths class in Year 9 - not the subjects, but the class environment, yknw?

Well, first reason why this year rocked: I've had a great class who I've gotten so close to, and I'm basically friends with everyone and a lot of them are just such awesome people who I think I'll continue being friends with even if we're in different classes next year. Sure, we won't be as close, but hopefully we'll still say hi in the corridors or something. It's been one of my favourite classes I've had. Year 9 was pretty shit because our class just didn't know each other and I can barely remember who was actually in my class. I guess I really don't want that to happen next year in Year 11 since our intake will be split up, but I really really wish we didn't have to change classes and destroy the friendships we made this year. This is basically the main reason I don't want this year to end. I've made so many new friends in a lot of my classes - not just my form class. But yeah, my form class is close and I genuinely think my form class is the best one in our year level. We've got the best people (no bitches or overly-socially retarded people) and we're really tight, unlike a couple of other intakes, so I think I was really lucky to get into Intake 1.

Second, my teachers this year have been the best. (In fact, I should be doing my xmas cards to them atm but I got distracted with checking my blogspot, then seeing winnie's post, then deciding to write a blog post cuz I am a emotional teenage motherfucker with a lot of feelings). My xmas cards are pretty much going to be the same for all of my teachers, even though everything I say for each of them would be completely genuine. I really have learnt so much and I've got pretty good relationships with my teachers this year, albeit a couple of them are still pretty intimidating (cough Mr Howe). I mean, I got really good marks in my end of year exams (all E's!!!) and everythings been going shitgood. I've enjoyed all my subjects and I wouldn't mind at all having the same bunch of teachers next year (yes, even maybe the certain science teacher if it meant I got to have the same teachers in all my other subjects). I really hope I get Mdme Morton again next year cuz French was so fun this year, and I learnt so so so much in English - more than I ever have in other years. Our Art class was so much chill than all the other Art classes and everyone just cracks lame jokes and we all talk about vampire diaries across the room while Mr Ball just does our artwork for us hahaha.

Then, I've got my 'asian' group at school, who (from my perspective) haven't had too much drama this year. I mean, for me, at least. Year 9 was kinda shit cuz me and Joanna were fighting and estranged from each other for the whole year and I had way too many caps lock arguments with a couple of people over facebook haahha. One aspect that sucked about this year was that so many people from our group changed schools (Reb, Rach, Ding....), and next year even more people are leaving (Aimee, possibly Meilin), but the people that left only left in Term 4 so it didn't impact on the year much. And plus I've been seeing them so much these couple of weeks cuz of all the birthday parties people have been having. I know that for some people they've been having a shit time this year regarding friendship drama, and I also know some people who hated last year cuz of friends excluding them/bullying them, and so this year has been waaay better for them.

I'm feeling really melancholic about this year ending. I'm really effing looking forward to holidays and just not going to school anymore, but I just wish that once holidays finish and Term 1 2012 starts nothing changes from this year so everything could just be as good as 2011. A lot of other things have contributed on 2011 being a good year (Kah*nui, Vampire diaries lol, etc) but I have a feeling that everything next year may change. It sucks cuz I'm not allowed to talk about it with anyone so I'm just in my little corner alone suffering the waiting process by myself.....
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....yep I'm pregnant.

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.... Just kidding.


Here's hoping for a good  great 2012.