Leading GREEN TEAM

13/02/2014

Fun fact:

In Year 7, I tried for House Captain at Mt Roskill. It was one of the only legit leadership positions available at intermediate. I wrote an amazing speech, thought I was relatively popular, and had people I barely knew come up to me afterwards saying they'd voted for me.

I really thought I would get it.

But I didn't get House Captain that year. And I... was... devastated. It was the end of the world. I thought: what's the point if I spend the whole important year of Y8, leaders of the school, as a nobody?

That, combined with me being put into the worst teacher in the world's class for year 8 was all too much for my 12 year old brain and heart to handle. I cried at morning tea and I wasn't the only one who was majorly upset about their Y8 class. It really sucked. My parents sympathized. My dad made a call to St Cuth's and they gave me an interview time.

If you think about it, it all turned out for the better.

*~*~*~every closed door opens a new window*~*~*~

I came to St Cuths, and I sat in quiet new-girl shyness as I watched as Anna and Liv R and others do their house captain speeches on green cue cards in 8WA. I remember the first day of St Cuths where Mrs Walls got us to do a writing exercise comparing the art of writing to gardening. I remember discussing this topic and reading my mini dissertation out to the class from my silver sparkly durasealed not-even-a-1B5. I remember telling my dad in the car when he picked me up that for once, I actually felt like I had learnt something at school. It had been so long (a whole year of wasting my time at roskill as I was left to do independent study on topics I had mastered already while the teacher neglected me) since I had felt like I had learnt something. It's true that any sane person wants to be challenged. Sure you enjoy breezing through everything in the beginning but after a while, you want to use your brain for something.

But I digress. I still remember Liv in her green tutu. I remember digging around my mum's wardrobe for green clothes for athletics day. I remember wearing a maxi skirt as a cape and being "leaf girl" while Sarah-Ann Hardacre wore stapled leaves to her shirt and she determined she was "tree woman" or something like that.

Superheroes became a theme for the years in the senior school in which I brought my ever-popular Hulk gloves. My brother's, really, but I use them more than he does (or ever will) at this point.

And I just spent about an hour researching costume sites trying to find an epic costume for this year because not only am I year 13 (hence, time to go all out for all school events) but---

wait for it...

I'M HOUSE CAPTAIN!

*FIREWORKS*

*explosions in the distance*

*sudden screaming*

*a baby wails*

*sirens approaching*

*screaming escalates*

See how everything just went full circle there?



So, onto our three things:

(before I start this actually I'm going to point out that I've found myself dangerously hovering along the edge of a cliff that overlooks a pit of negativity and shittiness -- and it's only 2nd week back -- so I'm glad this high has come right in time to swoop me from the precipice and back into the sunshine!)

1. the house captain thing

alrighty, so elaine gave faizah a call saying that faizah got service committee and she mentioned my name too but she didn't know what i got so izzy ran into the bio class (this was after school had just finished) and was like U GOT SERVICE LEADER and i was like omg wait what????? and obviously rather taken aback bcs i did not know where this had come from and didnt want to get my hopes up in case it was false information. I then went to library where i got a text from cherry saying a lot of things in caps lock and something along the lines of CONGRATS ON ELGIN HOUSE CAPTAIN!!! and i was like ?????????????? how do u know what is happening PLS EXPLIQUEZ SVP!!!! and apparently there was a meeting that our p6 teachers were supposed to tell us about (DIEGS!!!!!) at 3:20 in the staff room where they read out the committee/house leaders' roles. Hearing this rather reliable source of information that is when I started freaking out and celebrating and Cerys and Nadia were there and were freaking out with me and I think we freaked out some other students in the library but in a different "freak" to our freak....

I'M REALLY HAPPY THAT SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS AND SO MUCH OF IB GOT LEADERSHIP ROLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I ENJOY CELEBRATING MY OWN ACCOMPLISHMENTS SO MUCH MORE IF I CAN CELEBRATE OTHERS' ACCOMPLISHMENTS AT THE SAME TIME LET US ALL SUCCEED TOGETHER!!!!!!

2. WIT

I had my meeting with Ms Moy after school (before cherry's text and after elaine's call where i was confused) and we had our discussion and she had very little to correct from my WIT essay and it was all just grammatical things involving preopositions and I'M SO HAPPY BECAUSE I CAN BASICALLY FORGET ABOUT WIT FROM NOW ON OMG YES 20% OF ENG GRADE DONE AND DUSTED!!!! 

Also we discussed my surgery lol finally she acknowledges it. Speaking of which I ran into ms ballenden coming down the stairs and I waved and she waved and went really " :O :D " on me and was liek "IS THAT VICKY OH I THOUGHT IT WAS U " and i was like YAH but like i said hi to her yesterday so she obviosuly didnt recognize me there hahahaha and we had a chat about our holidays and my surgery as well. Raaya this segment was for u xoxo

3. Creepy Texts

I'm sure izzy wont mind me blogging about this since i have a very limited audience, but we were discussing her relationship w boyf at lunch and so we thought we'd try to creep him out and so she gave me his number and i've been sending texts a la the "u have now subscribed to cat facts" meme (if u havent seen it, GO AND CHECK IT OUT HERE: http://weknowmemes.com/2012/01/thank-you-for-signing-up-for-cat-facts/ )

But instead it's like "you have now subscribed to Daily Bigio updates" and then a sneaky-stalker-shot of Izzy from far away as she feigns doing work/being unaware of my camera. It is FAB i tell u. 

I have choir tmrw and it's nearly 1am and i'm going to DIE

Big Sing 2013

IT'S MY BIG SING BLOGPOST WHAT THE FUCK WOAH IT'S UP WHAT'S HAPPENING OH MY GOD VICKY ACTUALLY DID IT SHE GOT HER SHIT TOGETHER AND COPIED OUT THE POSTS FROM HER JOURNAL YAY FELICITATIONS!!!!

Okay so for the most part I'm going to copy directly what I wrote down in my diary there. Warning there is quite a bit of embarrassing Lachie fangirling (don't hurt me!!!!). I will post my present day comments in bracketed italics.

I didn't do a post on Day 1 so I'll just give a brief run down:

Day 1:

• flight down, seated next to millie and sophia, but swapped so that I got the aisle seat, and across the aisle was vivian (z). Talked about school and extracurriculars and I LEARNT THE CUP SONG!!!!! Which must have annoyed everyone else on the flight hahahaha. Also played iphone charades app with vivian's phone and we were really noisy. EGGS were sitting right behind us!!
• got to dunedin (it's really not that pretty of a city tbh) and our motel rooms weren't ready so we all had to pile our luggage into tibbles' and the yr9s' room, and we headed out to the church that we'd be performing in later that night to rehearse
• rehearsal was a bitch and it was really cold in the church

• it was actually warmer outside than inside the church wtf 
• walked around trying to find the octagon, gave up, and ended up just eating subway
• got the most rip off macchiato ($4.50 for HALF A SMALL CUP) from a cute little coffeeshop 
• went to the supermarket and got food for the week (ended up being too much food)
• got back to the motel and hung out with everyone in the yr9 apartment and watched masterchef and it was nice and relaxing and good bonding time
• went to choir dinner at this little turkish place that had shit food tbh (flinty ily but daaaamn who even recommended that place to you....) but good company :3
• performed in the church to a huge audience of ... four people... (more than we were expecting ngl)
• got back to the motel, slept at 10pm

11:24pm 29/08/2013 Day 2 of the Big Sing

Alas it is day 2 of our 5 day trip, and today can ultimately be summed up in one word: FUCKING-STRESSFUL. To be fair, it wasn't very stressful until around 4:30pm when we fucke up and ran late to a session (literally.. ran!!!) but I'll go into that later.

Last night I had a pretty shit sleep. We went to bed at around 10pm and were too pussy about the possibility of getting caught to actually man up and watch supernatural at 10:30 like we had planned to. And tired.

I woke up like, 4 times during the night which sucked. These motel rooms are surprisingly nice and warm! Two flat screen TVs in every complex, even! This morning I woke up way before 7 and wasn't even tired. I had a huge breakfast of crunchy nut, a banana, a crumpet with nutella, and a coffee (don't ask me why I thought it was important for me to record down what I had for breakfast in Dunedin, i have no idea what was going through my mind there....)

We then went to the opening ceremony in the town hall. As we were waiting outside with all the other choirs, Lachie was also out there and omfg ok HE WAS WEARING A FUCKING SCARF OH SWEET JESUS HAVE MERCY ON MY FRAGILE SOUL!!! I can't deal with boys in scarves omg it's like he's purposely fucking with me (maybe he knows!!...?) I inconspicuously got a snapchat photo of him which I save and will treasure forever. (Okay I am SO SORRY BUT THIS SHIT IS GOING TO BE HILARIOUS IN ABOUT A YEARS TIME) 



The opening ceremony had an acapella group from Otago and they were dressed as clowns and it was like WTF? Ok so at lunch we had a performance in a church and it was pretty good.

At lunch we went to velvet burger and I spent $23 and felt so ripped off and regretful afterwards that I sold Anty my wedges. NEVER AGAIN!! I didn't even get time to eat my burger until at afternoon tea, where we went back to our motel room and chilled -- possibly too much because before we knew it, it was already 4:20 and we were already late as we were supposed to be at the town hall for session 2 which started at 4:30. So, we ran. I MEAN, LEGITIMATELY, RAN. Sprinted blocks with my brick-filled country road bag slung across my shoulder and my choir skirt bunched up in one hand, trying in vain to hold my skirt together and not flash everyone on the street as I motherfucking POUNDED THAT PAVEMENT!!! When we got there, Victoria and Rachel (slightly ahead of us) had already made it into the session, but Viv Q and I were stuck outside until the choir finished. By then I was grossly red faced, sweating, and practically hyperventilating my ass off. I was pretty pissed off at myself, NGL, but what's done is done I guess. PS IF LACHIE LOOKS GOOD ON STAGE UNDER UNFLATTERING PERFORMANCE LIGHTING, HE LOOKS 100X BETTER IN DAYLIGHT UGHHHH (ok how did my stream of consciousness even jump to Lachie wtf Vicky)

I was expecting Flinty to give us a huge rage-out for being so late, but since Anty and Gyorgika was late as well, our group of six people faced her together, and she was basically like, "why were you late?" and I decided to just bite the bullet and tell her the truth that we had lost track of time at the hotel and she was super understanding over it and was like "your downtime when you were trying to relax before tonight's performance only made you more stressed, isn't that right?". Rachel and Victoria wanted to make some bullshit excuse about how I had mean period cramps which prevented our whole group from getting to the town hall on time and I was like uhhhh no i think it's probably better if we just tell her what actually happened lol. Anty and Gyorgika were so relieved that we were late as well because they were not only late, but actually in a group of 2 instead of a group of 3 like we had to be at all times.

For dinner break we had to go back to the motel to get my lanyard/tag because I'm an idiot who was not only late but forgot all her shit, so we had to get sushi on the way for dinner. Very tiring but better than running. We were up first in session 3 and this meant we were all quite ready and pumped. Personally I thought we performed rather well! Good, even! Very satisfied when I got off stage, hehe. Felt really engaged and like I did the best I could.

Other highlights:

• Dilworth got a standing ovation but only their last piece with the Pacifica dancing was outstanding imo
• St Kents and Wellington were really good. And Kings. I recognized a boy from roskill in the Kings choir! We kept staring at each other through their dancey piece because Saints were in the first row and thus in direct line of sight with the people on the stage. Everywhere I looked, it seemed like there were guys staring at me and I was feeling rather exposed lol. I'm obviously biased because all my favourite choirs have boys in them...
• Told mum to watch livestream but she missed us and only saw from 3rd choir in. How sad...
• At night, roommates and I had a pretty good time gossiping after lights out. Viv and I discussed our respective Year 8 boy dramas and awkwardness with guy friends at a young age haha. 

30/08 Day 3 of Big Sing 11:57pm

 Woke up late at 8:30 because we didn't have to meet until 10am. Turns out that we can't actually get ready properly in that amount of time and we were rushing out the door at 9:59am today. After the morning session, Victoria, Q, Sophia, JJ, and Grace and I had lunch in this Japanese place that took WAY too long to get us our food. Seafood udon FTW!! Next we had a rehearsal which was pretty intense and afterwards a bunch of us decided to get changed. This was happening during a session which meant choirs were performing and/or getting ready. We naively were talking very loudly as we descended the stairs in the town hall building, and LOW AND BEHOLD there was a (guest) choir rehearsing right at the bottom of one flight of stairs. We quickly shut up and as we descended to the next level, it was... you guessed it... Lachie and the Kents choir, prepping for their performance. ABSOLUTELY MORTIFYING EXPERIENCE OF EYE CONTACT WITH LACHIE SINCE I WAS AT THE FRONT OF THE GROUP. They were blocking the exit so we tried going through another way but it was a dead end, so we had to shamefully return to where the choir was and go through the proper exit. OMG kill me tbh.

Oh speaking of St Kents, I've been texting Darryn a fuckton and we were planning of meeting up today but it didn't happen because we both had short breaks with rehearsals. I saw him in the morning and then again later in the town hall after afternoon tea where he was a total sweetie and came over to where my choir was sitting to chat. I told him about the mortification of walking in on their choir and he was like "Hey I should introduce you to Lachie right now" and I don't believe I have EVER said "NO" that many times with that much panic in my voice at any one point of my life!!! OK, since we are already on the topic of Lachie, I just want to note down that he was wearing fuckin beige/mustard chinos that matched his beige fuckin SATCHEL and he also had a grey coat and scarf and GLOVES UGH HOW DARE HE?!?! WHO GIVES YOU THE RIGHT UGHUHGUHGUHGHHHHHHHH!! (okay reading back on this I actually cannot stop laughing IT TOOK ME ABOUT 10 MINUTES TO TYPE OUT THAT BIT ABOUT HIS CLOTHES BECAUSE I WAS ON THE FLOOR PISSING MYSELF HAHAHAH JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME THAT LITERALLY WAS A THIRD OF A PAGE IN MY DIARY JUST FLIPPING OUT OVER HIS GODDAMN OUTFIT OH MY GOD I NEED HELP)

At afternoon tea I went with Anty and Victoria to food court to look for Anty's bottle and as we were walking back to the town hall, /lachie was walking from the other way towards us and I nearly shat myself because EYE CONTACT!!!!!!!!!! I panicked because I wanted to seem like I was super non-committal walking past him so I started discussing the pros and cons of french braids for performance as we passed him OMFG I AM SUCH A LOSER????? The sun was setting behind him and everything was ridiculous.... I hate myself. (ok i literally just had a whole passage on making eye contact with him I'm not sure whether I want to punch myself more or check into a mental facility.)

Our performance (which my mum watched and texted "Great!!!" afterwards, yay!) was okay in my opinion but I didn't feel as good as I did after the first session. A part of that had to do with Flinty's negative, stressed attitude in our prep time. At dinner, I went with Anty and Gyorgika to this Italian restaurant but as we were walking there, we became engulfed by people from Burnside and it turns out that we were going to the same restaurant as their WHOLE CHOIR! The restaurant ended up kicking us out because they couldn't deal with the number of people, and we went roaming for another place. We wandered into a bar, got kicked out for being under 18, went into a Jap place, saw Flinty + co, and GAPPED IT, and ended up in the same restaurant that I went to for lunch.... -___-

Last Lachie point: as we left the town hall he was right behind me and I nearly fainted and Sophie was like WTF. When I checked my phone and turned on the internet, I got an influx of snapchats (22) and on FB I saw that Nicole watched our Big Sing performance and Cathee, Jo, and Cherry were watching the latest sessions as well!!! I felt SOOOO supported and grateful for my friends, aw. I was legitimately so overwhelmed! I can't believe they watched the livestreams! Lol apparently the cameras were filming audience members during the breaks between choirs and zooming up in on people's phones where they were playing candy crush, or zooming in on their text message hahahahha.

Jason from Kings (the guy from roskill) fb msg'd me asking if I was at Big Sing and I said yes and we texted for quite a bit. Kings is staying in the same hotel as St Kents!!! Might hang out with Jason and/or Darryn tomorrow. OH LOL DARRYN TEXTED ME ASKING IF I WANTED TO GO RUNNING WITH HIM TOMORROW MORNING AND I WAS LIKE HEEEELLLLL NO i ain't running for nobody!!!! Elaine was super cute and said they missed me at school. All this fbing and shit was happening as all four of us gathered in our one room after lights out and at first we were talking about shit and gossiping, but we ended up all on our phones taking advantage of the wifi hahaha bless our generation.

Day 3, 31/08/2013 3:20am

Breakfast was fast and we made our flashmob video at 8am, doing a thing where we popped out on the road singing what is this feeling to some boys from Wellington boys college (who are staying next door!!). Took a few takes but end product was good and on my camera. We posted it before the last session which was good. Before that session started, I called Kelly K over and we chatted for a bit which was nice.

Later, in the mass choir rehearsal, Sophie, I, and the rest of our alto section were in the front of the mass alto section, which was cool ut also rather embarrassing! At lunch, I went with Anty and Qiu to the Italian place that we got rejected from yesterday at dinner. Played cellphone-in-the-middle game which totally backfired on me because I was giving Darryn directions to get to the restaurant so that we could meet up. He came eventually and brought a friend (who ditched him) but I'm really glad we got to hang out! It was pretty awkward though because Qiu and Anty didn't know him so it was mainly Darryn and I talking, so I felt bad about leaving them out. Especially because he hadn't had lunch yet and had to wait ages before his order arrived. Had a bit of a discussion about Lachie (of course we did... HE BROUGHT IT UP THOUGH, NOT ME) and how Lachie can be a bit of a dick in his quest to be taken seriously by the students in spite of his young age. (Oh ps if you tell a guy that you're really into guys who wear scarves and then the guy wears a scarf the next time you see him and actually points out that he is wearing a scarf, are you supposed to read into that or....)

Darryn and us parted ways and Anty, Viv and I got back to the motel and chilled for a bit before Gala that night. A few of the year9s and vivian came into our room and it was lots of fun! I ended up doing 5 people's make up and my liquid eyeliner ran dry :( so I had to use my shitty pencil eyeliner which meant everyone had panda eyes by the end of the night hahaha.

Walked over to the town hall and got pizza in a rush along the way. We then took a bunch of proper choir photos in front of the cathedrals and on the steps. One of which is the first photo of this post!

At Gala we performed Hej Igatzisad which was alright and uneventful. At the end it was announced that we got Silver award and it was actually a bit of a shitfest when that happened. The compere hadn't announced our name in the bronze or silver list, and we got SO EXCITED thinking that we had gotten GOLD, and I was actually about to have a heart attack from the excitement, but then right after he said "moving on to the gold awards..." the guy handing out the plaques tapped him on the shoulder and showed him the name on the plaque and the compere was like "apologies, there is one more choir that received Silver -- Saints Alive!" and we were like ".... yay...." -____- honestly, we were expecting silver which was why we were absolutely dying when we thought that we were getting gold, and the drop down to silver was a HUGE anticlimax. If they had announced us in the silver category along with everyone elses, without making us expect a silver award, we would've probably been really proud and celebratory. Too bad.... According to Sophie's friend who is actually the compere's daughter, our choir wasn't even on his paper list at all - not in silver, bronze, or gold. So it wasn't really his fault.

Mass choir piece was super epic and I was standing right at the front which felt rather exposing.

The student function at the end was ... interesting. Very Year9 Socialish. LACHIE CAME TO THE FUCKING SOCIAL and I saw him and Anty and I were like OMG????  (okay do not read this next bit if you don't want to die from second hand embarrassment. No seriously, I can't even write it without cringing and taking 10 second breaks to breathe deeply and stop laughing from shame.) And I was like lol fuck it and took advantage of the crowded body-against-body area to take the piss with anty.... uh.... well... sort of... dance/grind against his back REALLY SUBTLY THOUGH, OKAY. No no but okay get this, I fucking danced with him?? Like, face to face???? MULTIPLE TIMES THROUGH THE NIGHT BECAUSE I WAS LIKE, FRANKLY, I MIGHT AS WELL TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS OPPORTUNITY OR ELSE I WOULD REGRET IT AND COMPLAIN ABOUT BEING IN NEAR PROXIMITY AND NOT DOING SHIT, so yeah I danced with him.... Not like, body on body, it wasn't raunchy, take your head out of your hands man! It was totally PG, armwidth away jammin (he fist pumps a lot, it's really funny/sad) and it actually lasted quite a long time. Like, half a song? Bravo Vicky, didn't pass out from the proximity and constant eyecontact...  I FUCKING DANCED WITH HIM WHAT THE FUCKKKK!!!!!!!!!!

Later I found Darryn (their whole choir was still in uniform lol) and we hung out/danced/jammed for a while and went outside for a bit as well. I told him Lachie was there and he physically dragged me to go dance with him so that he could introduce me to him and ACTUALLY FUCKING PUSHED ME INTO HIM AND I WANTED TO SMACK HIM OMG but I refused to do it because NUH-UH I AM NOT GETTING INTRODUCED!! So he danced with lachie a little while and they fist pumped and it was SO lame that it verged on adorable hahahha it was like I was watching a jersey shore episode.... His friend and him came across two of their choir members making out and they FLIPPED THE FUCK OUT and did that "OHHHHHHHHHH SNAAAPPP" thing where they jumped around so I was like lol cya and gapped it. Ran into Jason like, 4 times! Had a bit of a convo where he asked me where I went and then he was like "real different to roskill - we've done well for ourselves!" and I was like oh snap no u didnt!!!

Anty and I even went upstairs to the mezzanine for a bit, where we ran into this guy in westlake who was friends with rachel/libby, etc. Eventually Anty and I went into the St Kents zone where I found Lachie again (oh god i'm so sorry) and danced in proximity and then Darryn saw me and FUCKING INTRODUCED ME TO LACHIE BY SAYING GOD KNOWS WHAT BUT HE POINTED AT ME AND LACHIE LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED AND NODDED AND I WAS LIKE AWWW SHIT DARRYN WHAT DID U FUCKING SAY.... (ps darryn still refuses to tell me what he said and i've bugged him a million times about it and he wON'T TELL ME AND I LITERALLY WANT TO PUKE AT THE THOUGHT OF IT) And we ended up dancing in the same smallish circle and I just ?!?!??!?! omfg?!?!? We did the lame YMCA actions and the fucking gangnam style oh my god everyone (including L) was so into it and I was like ........ ok.

I was tempted to ask for a photo because YOLO but decided to keep some semblance of my dignity (APPARENTLY THERE WAS A GIRL WHO ACTUALLY ASKED FOR A PHOTO WITH HIM, I CAN'T EVEN DEAL OMFG?!?!?!)

Um yeah so it's almost 4am now and we had gotten home at 1am and I've been texting people for the last 2 hours.... There was a fire alarm at 3am at the hotel that Kings and St Kents are staying at hahahahaha everyone came out in their pjs and shit and it was REALLY FUCKING COLD. I jokingly told Darryn to take a photo of Lachie for me in his pjs and he was like "that's pervy" and I was like "nah shh just do it" and he replied "I asked Lachie and he said it was weird" AND I WANT THE FLOOR TO FUCKING SWALLOW ME OH MY GOD I WAS JOKING, WHY WOULD U ACTUALLY TELL A PERSON THAT, THAT IS SO EMBARRASSING SOMEONE KILL ME.

Day 4

• Tourist Day
• Really bad hair day so all my photos are a MESS which is rather unfortunate if you're taking photos the whole day
• Went to the Cadbury Chocolate factory and they unleashed this big tank of melted chocolate and took a photo of our reactions and my face was in the state of extreme shock (I feared for my life when it happened, THERE WAS SO MUCH AND I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO SPLASH ONTO ME AND I WAS THINKING "I WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO GET CHOCOLATE OUT OF MY CLOTHES GET IT AWAY!!!) so that's basically what my face conveyed.... Also, everyone else went crazy buying chocolate and I felt bad for not buying anything because I usually have chocolate at home anyway, haha.

• Climbed Baldwin Street aka steepest street in the world. People who cycle down there are fucking NUTS. It didn't really feel that steep though, just was kinda like climbing a hill. Definitely wasn't as bad as tramping... (ps darryn ran that street on that morning he tried to make me go running with him and it was early morning and -7 degrees... fucking crazy....)

• Lazer Tag!!! I KILLED it!!!! Consistently got among the highest accuracy and near the top of the leaderboards! Our team won in the end, hehe. SO MUCH FUN!! Everyone on the other team got really irked at me because I kept killing them and using the mirrors muhahhahaha
• The bus ride around everywhere was really nice and everyone just bonded and talked, and viv z had these nasty ass REALLY SOUR lollies that she filmed a reaction of me eating. IT WASN'T EVEN SOUR, IT WAS REALLY GROSSLY SALTY AND CHEMICALLY BURNT MY TONGUE!!! I had to spit it out eugh :(
• Harri and Lizey made a (surprisingly nice) song using dumb lyrics that Jess and Brit wrote. It went along the lines of "the sky is green like a gherkin//and I feeel like twerkin// twerk, miley, twerk it" except I'm missing like, 3 lines in between those bits, and theres a whole another verse after that. They made it into the tune of a nice folk song with guitar noodling and harmonies hahahha
• Went to the beach, planned to have lunch, realised there wasnt much choice in food, drove back to the food court.
• Went to an old trainstation where we did impromptu performances (well, not really performances, just singing) of For thy greatest blessings, Sanctus, and Benedictus because the acoustics were really pretty. It was so nice just being able to do that out of nowhere!! Everyone came out around the trainstation to see why there was singing going on hahahha. Such a lovely experience that I think I will remember as one of the highlights of the trip :)

• Flinty shouted us all ice creams from McDonalds, it was awesome. 

• Bus broke down so there was a stressful period where we had to wait for another bus whilst worrying about whether we would make our flight in time.
• Flew back home, did SAT vocab on the plane with Sophia hahahaha

I miss big sing :( Can't wait till next year!! I hope Lachie doesn't remember me... fuck.

two oh thirteen

Ahhh, it's that time of year again. And by "that time of the year", I mean, the glorious, promising beginning of a long and super busy 2013.

2012 was a great year for many, and a terrible year for some. For me, it was a pretty uneventful, fast 52 weeks full of a lot of late passes and stressful cramming of extracurriculars. Not to mention, the dreadful life-or-death decision of NCEA or IB.

But 2012 was also full of awesome memories like going to Wellington for choir nationals, and going to not one, not two, but three concerts (do flight of the conchords count? I'm saying they do), and turning the big ol' sweet sixteenth. Along with that, I've also developed and made some great friendships, and rekindled old ones, and best of all for the most part, I've been pretty satisfied with life, and think I've probably grown a lot as a person.

Sadly I have been seriously neglecting this blog and I have barely posted, with only 42 posts in 2012 compared to 100+ in both 2011 and 2010 whaaaat?! I think this year I might change my style of blogging slightly and perhaps use proper grammar and spelling for the most part. That doesn't mean I'm going to tone down the swearing and ramble-y tone, I just might start actually capitalizing words properly from now on, ha.

Well, let's get down to business, shall we? Here were 2012's new year's resolutions:

• All Excellences in both examinations (that means studying in the holidays....) 

I got all excellences in midterms, but not for term 3 mocks :'( curse you physics and calculus!!! I don't have results for NCEA yet nor do I want to have them... Ignorance is bliss, they say.

• Get a job and keep it so you have a steady income 

Well, that really didn't work. I'm still trying though. If you havent read my first job-hunting adventure,  read it here. Sadly, my second attempt at job hunting resulted in me missing a bus and turning up late for an orthodontist appointment where they tightened my braces and made life suckish again, but uh, I digress.

• Stop waking up after 12pm during the holidays cuz you waste your break away (this means not going to sleep at 5am every night!) 

........ Oops.

• Save money and use eftpos only for emergencies and gifts maybe. 

I think this worked for the most part? However, because of christmas, my bank account is once again, severely depleted and have I mentioned how much I really nEED A FUCKING JOB?

• Exercise everyday so that you have more energy and so you're not as lazy

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA (this may have worked for the first half of the year? Not sure, can't remember. Definitely not anymore though)

• Keep room substantially tidy 

Wow lmao NOPE

• Make more friends i.e. put yourself out there more and stop being a bitch to the people in the year under you. 

I think I tried, a little, but not enough. Better than before but I definitely need to work on my terrible attitude ugh yuck

• Eat healthy, don't overeat, drink plenty of water and learn to cook healthy things (eg not mi goreng) 

No, no, nope, and no.

• Restart piano and work on your diploma (practice everyday) 

This may very well be the most unsuccessful resolution of the bunch. I haven't even touched a proper piano piece for a year.

• Do more charity work, sign up for first aid classes, volunteer. 

Damn, I really wish I remembered to work on this one, but I feel like even if I did remember this, I wouldn't have had time to do any volunteering because my schedule was just constantly so damn busy.

• Don't let rejection get you down. 

Well, I think I probably got this one done pretty well. Got rejected from Saints, felt pretty shitty, but re-auditioned and it paid off. Got rejected from Kidsline, said fuck you, violently defaced the letter, and moved on. I can't remember any other rejection tales but feel free to remind me so I can take a trip down rejection avenue.

Speaking of rejection, I'd just like to add how my experiences with rejection this year taught me a couple of pretty valuable things. Sometimes, it's not even your fault you got rejected. It doesn't necessarily mean you're not good enough -- many times it's just because it's just not the right thing for you. You may not be suited for that particular thing, but there are so, so many other opportunities that you can take full advantage of that you  may find a lot more fulfilling. Other times, rejection is just an encouragement for you to reflect and change what you did wrong, and try, try, try again. If you don't get a second chance at that specific thing, at least you can take what you could possibly improve on and use it for future reference. Rejection isn't an end, my lovelies-- it's just the beginning.

• Grow taller, skinnier, boobier. 

Oh, I take it back. This one was definitely the most unsuccessful.

• Make the most out of 2012 :)

You know what, I think I did! I think that the extracurriculars I signed up for made me unintentionally focus on this resolution, and help me develop my person and teach me important life crap. Debating and netball umpiring forced me to be confident in self-assured, even if I wasn't. Choir was great for teamwork and proving that I could have time management skills if I forced myself to. I won't bore you with what I learnt through everything else like shakespeare, brain bee, chinese dance group, peer mediation, netball, speech and drama, pilates (lmao don't think this counts) and finally learning how to swim since I'm sure you get the point. I think that getting the top English prize is something I'm allowed to be proud of, as well as getting distinction in my speech and drama grade 6 exam, winning silver and best maori piece at choir nationals, learning how to swim, and my work on my art board. In terms of things that aren't awards, I think although I didn't get great marks in mocks, I've finally learnt my lesson after finals, and I'm ready for what IB (and 2013) wants to throw at me. 

Well, that's last year, I guess. Onwards to this year! My 2013 resolutions are... (drumroll):

• Don't look down upon anyone or have prejudices towards people because of appearance, status, or the people they hang out with. I hate it when people treat me as inferior, so what gives me the right to treat others the same way? Treat everyone equally with kindness and a good nature.
• Learn to prioritise - your tumblr and the amount of tumblr followers you have will in no way benefit you at all in 5 years time, so why spend your valuable sleeping time on updating your blog? Put school first, as year 12 is the most important year for college applications and you seriously cannot forget that.
• Be willing to help others and go out of your way to help them, but in saying this, don't sacrifice your own grades or health for it. Stop selfishly hiding your good work to yourself because of your fear of others stealing your work and taking credit for it. (Just so you know, I have this 'fear' because it's already happened once before). IB requires you to be able to share your knowledge with your classmates so that you can all help each other to study.
• Arrive early at school, every day, so it becomes a habit. Quarter past eight. Being late three out of five times every single week makes you look extremely disorganized, and also, it's embarrassing that Mrs Wong already knows you by name.
• Go to bed at 11pm-ish every night. Even on weekends. Good sleeping habits will positively affect your schoolwork, attitude, skin, and like, everything else in life.
• All 7's in All Exams. Don't leave studying to the night before your exam. CMON VICKY YOU'RE BETTER THAN THAT GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER 
• Read books that will change your life and your views of the world.
• Exercise everyday for at least half an hour (oh yes I am bringing this motherfucker back)
• (one especially for the holidays) Get up before 11am four out of seven days a week

And, finally, of course, make the most out of 2013!

let's reflect, shall we?

So, it is officially 2012. Happy New Year everybody!!!! I hope you guys had a good last day of 2011. I'm not sure how to categorize mine. I guess it was pretty entertaining for the most part haha.

But before I get onto that, I'm gonna do resolutions!

Last years were....

• Learn how to swim and bike

..... well, I guess I kinda learnt how to bike. I still can't do 25m of swimming (ha).

• Spend less time on the computer

nope.

• Eat healthy stuff instead of junk as much as possible.

I had phases where I was super healthy, so this was half done.

• Drink lots of water.

same as above. phases of superhydration. been drinking lots of water lately actually.

• Study in the holidays.

HA. nope.

• Tidy room often, instead of leaving mess in room, and having it build up.

LOL. nooooooooooo.

• STOP ASKING FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S FOOD.

hey actually, i achieved this!! woohoo!!! yeah, I still do it from time to time but it's a lot less often.

• COMPLAIN LESS!!!!!!!!!!!

....eh.

• BLOG MORE!!!

..... eh? I guess?

• EXERCISE EVERYDAY!!!!!! (... i don't know why it suddenly all got capitalized)

this worked for quite a long while in the beginning of the year. then winter came and I cbf doing anything and now it's summer again so I might start this up. It was going really well though. I actually exercised for an hour everyday. :O

• Save money and use eftpos only for emergencies

THIS WENT SO WELL!!!!!!!!! .... that is, until November and December when everyone's birthdays came up and I had to buy Christmas presents. I actually didnt even touch my eftpos for 10 months though!! GO ME!!

• GO TO BED BEFORE 12AM EVERYNIGHT

nope.

• .... grow :(

..... nope :(((((((((

okay, this years resolutions....

• All Excellences in both examinations (that means studying in the holidays....)
• Get a job and keep it so you have a steady income
• Stop waking up after 12pm during the holidays cuz you waste your break away (this means not going to sleep at 5am every night!)
• Save money and use eftpos only for emergencies and gifts maybe.
• Exercise everyday so that you have more energy and so you're not as lazy.
• Keep room substantially tidy
• Make more friends i.e. put yourself out there more and stop being a bitch to the people in the year under you.
• Eat healthy, don't overeat, drink plenty of water and learn to cook healthy things (eg not mi goreng)
• Restart piano and work on your diploma (practice everyday)
• Do more charity work, sign up for first aid classes, volunteer.
• Don't let rejection get you down.
• Grow taller, skinnier, boobier.
• Make the most out of 2012 :) 

2011

I think I can safely say that 2011 has been the best year I've had so far.

I guess there have been other good years - Year 6 and 5 hold lots of great memories for me. I can't really remember anything except for odd random memories from before Year 4. There were aspects in Year 7 that were kind of horrible for me: I didn't like MRIS at all and thought my time was being wasted at school everyday since I never actually learnt anything and the extracurriculars were shit, etc. The friends were alright, even though I'm not close to any of my old friends there anymore. Year 9 form class was pretty lame cuz we didn't even know each other. I got close with Jade and Maria and Maggie and stuff in Year 9 though, which was pretty good. I loved social studies and maths class in Year 9 - not the subjects, but the class environment, yknw?

Well, first reason why this year rocked: I've had a great class who I've gotten so close to, and I'm basically friends with everyone and a lot of them are just such awesome people who I think I'll continue being friends with even if we're in different classes next year. Sure, we won't be as close, but hopefully we'll still say hi in the corridors or something. It's been one of my favourite classes I've had. Year 9 was pretty shit because our class just didn't know each other and I can barely remember who was actually in my class. I guess I really don't want that to happen next year in Year 11 since our intake will be split up, but I really really wish we didn't have to change classes and destroy the friendships we made this year. This is basically the main reason I don't want this year to end. I've made so many new friends in a lot of my classes - not just my form class. But yeah, my form class is close and I genuinely think my form class is the best one in our year level. We've got the best people (no bitches or overly-socially retarded people) and we're really tight, unlike a couple of other intakes, so I think I was really lucky to get into Intake 1.

Second, my teachers this year have been the best. (In fact, I should be doing my xmas cards to them atm but I got distracted with checking my blogspot, then seeing winnie's post, then deciding to write a blog post cuz I am a emotional teenage motherfucker with a lot of feelings). My xmas cards are pretty much going to be the same for all of my teachers, even though everything I say for each of them would be completely genuine. I really have learnt so much and I've got pretty good relationships with my teachers this year, albeit a couple of them are still pretty intimidating (cough Mr Howe). I mean, I got really good marks in my end of year exams (all E's!!!) and everythings been going shitgood. I've enjoyed all my subjects and I wouldn't mind at all having the same bunch of teachers next year (yes, even maybe the certain science teacher if it meant I got to have the same teachers in all my other subjects). I really hope I get Mdme Morton again next year cuz French was so fun this year, and I learnt so so so much in English - more than I ever have in other years. Our Art class was so much chill than all the other Art classes and everyone just cracks lame jokes and we all talk about vampire diaries across the room while Mr Ball just does our artwork for us hahaha.

Then, I've got my 'asian' group at school, who (from my perspective) haven't had too much drama this year. I mean, for me, at least. Year 9 was kinda shit cuz me and Joanna were fighting and estranged from each other for the whole year and I had way too many caps lock arguments with a couple of people over facebook haahha. One aspect that sucked about this year was that so many people from our group changed schools (Reb, Rach, Ding....), and next year even more people are leaving (Aimee, possibly Meilin), but the people that left only left in Term 4 so it didn't impact on the year much. And plus I've been seeing them so much these couple of weeks cuz of all the birthday parties people have been having. I know that for some people they've been having a shit time this year regarding friendship drama, and I also know some people who hated last year cuz of friends excluding them/bullying them, and so this year has been waaay better for them.

I'm feeling really melancholic about this year ending. I'm really effing looking forward to holidays and just not going to school anymore, but I just wish that once holidays finish and Term 1 2012 starts nothing changes from this year so everything could just be as good as 2011. A lot of other things have contributed on 2011 being a good year (Kah*nui, Vampire diaries lol, etc) but I have a feeling that everything next year may change. It sucks cuz I'm not allowed to talk about it with anyone so I'm just in my little corner alone suffering the waiting process by myself.....
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....yep I'm pregnant.

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.... Just kidding.


Here's hoping for a good  great 2012.

currently watching the parent trap on youtube

got 8 minutes in and couldn't deal with my internal ramblings anymore so decided to watch it while liveblogging. before i do that however, you should know that the parent trap was my favourite movie as a kid and i saw it at least 20 times. It's been about, at least 5 years since I've watched it. This is bizarre.

• The song at the beginning of the movie brings back so many memories!! i used to sing this around the house all the time
• oh god the old lady speaking into loudspeaker! I never understood what she was saying but now I do. I recognize everyone's tone of voice more than the actual things they're saying in this movie!!
• "i thought this was a BOY'S camp!"
• THE DUFFEL BAG SCENE OMG "okay! found my duffle" *5 duffles thrown on top* "now the question is.... how do i get it out?"
• "WOAH now thats my kinda woman!" omg this movie. omg the horrible script. i love it all.
• the infamous annie-steps-out-of-the-car scene. omg everytime someone holds the door open and i step out of the car graciously i think of this scene
• THE LIST! "check. check. check check!"
• THE HANDSHAKE OMGGGGGGGGGGG I DIDNT REALISE HOW EMBARRASSING THIS HANDSHAKE WAS UNTIL NOW. martin the butler have you no dignity?
• 
• guys i love this movie so much
• OMG THIS SONG
• THE STRAWBERRIES A;DOJF;SADPFS "at least i'm not putting salt in the sugar shakers" oh dear hahaha
• ........ omg is that janice from friends?! OHMYGOD
• "i'll take a whack at it!" I REMEMBER EVERYTHING
• THE FENCING SCENE! THE YAWN! THE SLOW MO THROWING OF THE FENCING SWORD UP IN THE AIR AND CATCHING IT! THE FALLING INTO THE WATER!
• "sorry let me help you!" "No, let ME help YOU!" /pulls into water
• this movie guys. 
• the gasp of shock as they realise they look alike!.... and they still shake hands despite the fact they're identical? i'd be freaking out. and the gasp at the electricity when they shake hands omg
• holy shit i used to love this bit! "well, your eyes are much closer together than mine... your ears, well, dont worry you'll grow into them. your teeth are a LITTLE bit crooked. UGH AND THAT NOSE. dont worry dear those things can be fixed!"
• the acting is so atrocious this is brilliant
• the poker scene guys omg its intense hallie just took off her sunglasses LET'S GET DOWN TO BUSINESS
• you guys dont understand the types of nostalgia i'm feeling right now. when i was little, when our family played poker, i used to do all the tapping-face-while-reading-cards and fanning-cards-out-by-flipping-them things cuz of this movie.
• i bet this post is so boring and no ones gonna read it but its for my amusement haha
• and then she had to jump into the pool 'butt-naked' and they stole her clothes AND THEN ANNIE RETALIATES BY MOVING THEIR BEDS ONTO THE ROOF omg disney i love you
• holy shit IS IT BAD THAT I'M LAUGHING MY ASS OFF AT THIS HALLIE-PRANKS-ANNIES-ROOM SCENE? omg i actually love this bit so much and then the camp workers get chocofied and feathered omg
• LIGHT FLICKERING SCENE !!!!!!!! AAAAAAHH
• and they bond over a stuck window aw
• leo dicaprio poster ahahahah. and annie has never heard of him? yeah right.
• OREOS WITH PEANUT BUTTER! (idontlikeit...)
• ahh they realise that its probably more than a coincidence that they look identical, have the same birthday and are missing one parent.
• "that's my dad!" "That's my mom!" AKLDFA;PSDOJFASKLDF
• omg im crying wtf is wrong with me "Hallie! we're like, twins!!!!!"
• 
• she looks so much better with long hair though 
• HAHAHA "DON'T SHUT YOUR EYES!" LMFAO "sorry! i'm nervous! "YOU'RE nervous? an eleven year old is cutting my hair!!!!!"
• "honey, you never looked better."
• "no no no not happening sorry wrong number i REFUSE" haha i remember that.
• omg the earpiercing and the 'earpiercing' scream HA SEE WHAT I DID THERE
• I REMEMBER EVERYTHIINNNGG
• everytime a song plays in this movie, i'm totally like I REMEMMBERR THIS SOONNNGGG
• "what are you doing?" "just smelling." ".....smelling?" "years from now I'll always remember my grandfather and how he always smelt of peppermint and pipe tobacco!"
• hallie and her mum reunite holy shit dont cry dont cry dont fucking cry
• this is especially sad cuz the actress who played her mum died :(((
• you know what else is sad? the fact that i am lolling at various parts of the movie - not from oh-this-is-so-lame humour, but genuine LOLs
• omg her reactions to cuppy. "well should we dispose of the little creatur-" "-NO!"
• THIS SONG "here comes the sun doo doo doo doo here comes the sun and i say...its alright"
• HEY OMG A BEATLES REFERENCE! i never noticed that when i was little!
• 
• also, what the hell is hallie wearing!? OVERSIZED POWDER BLUE PANTSUIT
• aw shes in so much awe of her mum aodfj;alskdf so many feelings
• OMG THIS SONG. AND THE WEDDING DRESS MODELLING WITH THE HAT 
• "or at least the f-word?" "...THE F WORD?" "...my father!" "OH THAT FWORD." haha i agree with  the top comment of the vid - i never got that as a kid!
• ..... ITS DENNIS QUAID WHAT
• AWWW ALL THESE REUNIONS WHAT ARE THEY DOING TO ME
• also, my parents were never this excited after i got back from camp. fuck, they came 2 HOURS LATE. 
• they went to camp for 8 weeks though, which is double kah*nui (dont want to write name or it'll show up in google searches)
• omg annie rambling about the word 'dad' this is adorable AWW DENNIS QUAID IS GONNA CRY 
• hahaha "it is none of my business on how your father makes a fool of himself" hahahaha SHES FROM "SHALL WE DANCE"
• meredith blake you gold digging slut. i always associate her with the age of 26. in fact, when someone says they're 26, i think of this movie haha
• LOL AND WHEN SHE JUMPS INTO THE POOL TO SPLASH MERIDETH.
• and hallie goes into the room under the stairs during a phone call with annie ahhhhhhh
• HAHA AND SHE CRINKLES THE CANDY WRAPPER TO MAKE IT AS IF THE PHONE CONNECTION IS BREAKING UP! that's where i learnt it from!!
• "you see she lives in new york but she was on vacation with her family in bora bora!" HAAHHAHAA
• omg chessies facial reaction ARE THE BEST !! "i... am annie" /gasp :O
• OMFG HAHAHAHAA AND SHE STARTS CRYING "...chessie why are u looking at hallie like that?" "like what? i'm not looking at her in any special way. im looking at her like i looked at her for eleven years... since the day she came home from the hospital *starts crying* six pounds eleven ounces 21 inches long this is how i look at her................. *cries harder* CAN I HUG HER?!" LAUGHING SO HARD HAHAHA
• "OH SHES SO BEAUTIFULLLLL" *sob* HAHAHHAHAHAHA I CANNNTT! I barely remember this part! hahaha
• "you're going to adopt meredith! that is SO sweet dad!" 
• LOL WHY DID SHE START SPEAKING FRENCH? 
• "HAL CALM DOWN!... are you speaking french!?"
• "is that clear?" "Crystal." omg this line used to confuse me so so much because i didn't understand the saying 'crystal clear' so i would always watch this scene and think they were talking about a girl called crystal or something and i'd be like whos crystal D:
• "may i have a sip?" "i dont think you're gonna like it."
• 
• btw because of this scene, everytime i drank grape juice in my childhood, i'd swirl it around in the glass, sniff it, and then drink it.
• CRYING NOW. HALLIE JUST TOLD HER MUM THAT SHE WASNT ANNIE ALKDF;ALSDF can you imagine if you hadn't seen your kid for years and they spring that on you omg ALL THE FEELINGS
• HOLY SHIT MARTIN THE BUTLER IS SOBBING HIS EYES OUT OMG HE'S DEFINITELY NOT STRAIGHT HAHAHAHA
• ohmygod the whole scene with elizabeth freaking out was fucking hilarious i'm pissing myself. "I'M NOT MATURE ENOUGH FOR THIS!... i mean look at me martin, have you ever seen me like this?-- dont answer that." OMG AND MARTIN IS DEFINITELY NOT STRAIGHT. he's giving elizabeth fashion advice and HE'S WEARING A WHOLE OUTFIT OF LEATHER HAAHHAHA I AM LAUGHING SO HARD
• oh i just went on tumblr and searched the parent trap and apparently katerina graham (bonnie on vamp diaries) was in it as this chick:
   
• omfg martin in a speedo this shit is hilarious
• OMFG MARTIN AND CHESSIE FLIRTING WITH EACH OTHER IM DEAD
• haahhaa the elevator scene where hallie meets meredith lmfaoooooo "who are you robert deniro?!"
• HAHAHAHA HE FELL IN THE POOL I REMEMBER THIS
• HAHAHAHAHHA WHEN MEREDITH FINDS OUT THERE ARE TWO HALLIES AND DOES THAT SILLY JUMP SCREAM THING HAHAHAHAHHA
• awwww the boat scene a;dfjsdf so cute. i always found hallies dress/kimono thing to be a little odd/cool
• "just relaaax.saaail through time. back to yesteryeeear!" i totally remember that
• she threw a hairdryer at him. i was just thinking about that a couple  days ago!
• omg the lizard went in her mouth. thats gross and hilarious at the same time haha
• best prank ever: dragging sleeping person on their sleeping mat onto a lake so they wake up in the midst of water. HAHA.
• okay lol im gonna stop liveblogging cuz i cbf anymore

BUT OMG PARENT TRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP !!!!!!! <333333

what happened last last friday night

 

the video i made for ding dong :)

um so we didnt go streaking in the park
or skinny dipping in the dark
and we DEFINITELY didn't have a menage a trois

basically, last last friday night, we were lame and we had fun dammit!

so me and lizzi went to her house cuz thats where we were holding maria's ohmygod-she's-leaving-us-so-we-must-celebrate-just-kidding party/sleepover/soiree pyjama >>;; and no one was coming till like, 4:30, so I just whipped out my computer to watch the new vampire diaries episode (which was 'bloody' good btw....seewhatididthere? :D) and lizzi went on tumblr or whatever. and then halfway through my episode, rebecca and sangya came, and then rebecca came to watch vd with me and sangya...uh. i actually have no idea what sangya was doing. maybe playing with lizzis cat idk.

and then maria came, and cathee came (or did cathee come before maria?) and then we were like LOLZ LETS PAINT OUR NAIIILSS!! so we painted our nails and that actually took so much time haha. and then the pizza man came with like, 10 pizzas and i was like :O holy crap! and we all pigged out and ate on the deck freezing our tushies off and laughed and talked and just did what we did best - being fucking hilarious losers. and we played fuck marry kill and i found out that lizzi is a sick fuck who would have sex with voldemort WTF DUDE THE GUY DOESNT HAVE A NOSE *OR* A TAN. then halfway through dinner cherry came, and after a while we moved inside cuz everyone was near getting hypothermia. and then inside we talked and ate and laughed some more and then idk what happened but we started youtubing random videos and they (not me, never me) started tangoing and i was laughing my ass off at them. oh and various people gave maria presents and cathee, lizzi and maria started bawling their eyes out and i laughed at them.

and we did a little model runway thing in lizzi's hallway hahahahha oh god

we were being too loud with all the screaming and cackling and shit so we moved down to the basement and then we all started shuffling to party rock anthem lmfao.... i dont even know... wut okay.

and we swopped outfits hahahahha. cherry needs to buy some minishorts .

after thaaaat, we went upstairs to lizzis movie room and decided what movie to watch. they wanted to watch lion king 1 and a half. i had no say in the matter >.>;; i hadn't even seen lion king 1 at that stage (but i went to watch it with marcia and sueyeon on tuesday - it was good!) but lion king 1 and a half was pretty full of da lolz too. after that, cathee left cuz she wasnt allowed to sleep over, and we watched mulan which was good until the disk decided to be a bitch and kept freezing and skipping parts :(

we ate grapes and popcorn yes party!

and then we went downstairs to the basement to sleep and decided to play truth or dare in the dark but sans the dare part. and everyone fell asleep except for me and cherry and then i decided i was very uncomfortable between two people on a matress so i went to sleep on the floor.

surprisingly, i had a good sleep. next morning i woke up and someone (i cant remember who. think it was lizzi) drew on sangya and marias faces hahaha. we had breakfast (om nom nommity scrambled eggs, bacon, french toast, banana smoothie) and i went and posted on cherrys blog which u can find here. and we kinda sat around being lazy shits for a while, and cherry and reb left early cuz they had stuff on, and me, sangya, maria and lizzi were left.

we walked to mt eden shops and got frappucinos and went to geoffs emporium, which is like, a fucking huge awesome godsland of various crap. spent ages looking for water guns and water balloons before finding them at the front of the shop, all the while, sangya was waiting outside in the cold with the bike hahaha. bought water weapons and two huge bubble mixture blower thingys and walked back home, while blowing bubbles along the way. both bubble blower handles broke during the walk home. shitty made in china stuff hahahah. got home, FINALLY warmed up a bit, got changed into togs and shit, and started filling up water balloons for war lol. i was in a team with sangya cuz lizzi and maria ditched me. water balloons are a bitch to fill up, just saying. took about 20 minutes to fill up 20 and used them up in like, 3 minutes. lizzi and maria are dirty motherfucking soldiers btw. came into our territory like, 8 times. i ended up pouring a bucket of water on them though, but that resulted in them going to the pool to fill up their bucket and thus throwing it on us, and then lizzi throwing me in the pool. ahhaha. but then everyone jumped into the pool, so, meh. and then we had a gun fight/lets-drown-maria thing in the pool and BITCHES I HAVE THE BEST AIM EVER. but sangya was fucking brutal.

and then we went into the spa and it got chilly and the spa wasnt hot enough and we were fucking freezing and like, ran into the house after a while and took showers hahaha.

AND THEN, PERFECT TIMING - IT WAS TIME TO LEAVE :(

and that was the end of our eventful friday/saturday.

suzy's world

holy shit does anyone else remember this show? i got reminded of it by a facebook group, so i went on her the 'suzy's world' show website and fuck, THESE MOTHERFUCKERS POPPED UP and along with it all these memories of when i was little. 

i think i had a colouring in book or something that included those top 3 little drawings thingys, cuz i recognize them but i dont remember what i did with them. fuck, this is so fucking trippy though. NOSTALGIA DEAR GOD.

i'm actually so freakin' nostalgic right now. i can't even... i cant. :'(

in other news, lizzi emailed mr h (dont want to type his name in case it pops up if he googles his name or something) and signed it off with 'hugs, lizzi' because she forgot that she was emailing a teacher. she told me and i laughed my ass off, holy crap. i seriously laughed my ass off. FUNNIEST SHIT EVAHHH.

hugs, vicky.

xoxo ILYLT4EVA

hurt like a bitch the next day

holy shit. i just revisited my old  open diary page and read my oldest post on there. hahahaha ohh the times when i used the word "fugger". and "da". and "wif". and "bisshy".

AND OMG LOL:

"I was on msn with this guy called josh and he used 2 be my crush but like, we're all guds now. But the fing is, talking 2 him just made me realise how cool he is. He goes to Kings which is like, St Cuth's Boyfriend School! So, i dunno. Focusing on my studies! RAR!"


HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. omg trust me thats not even the funniest one.


also reading about when i hung out with paulina in city. wow. that feels like an eternity ago. it's kinda sad cuz i'm reading the slow destruction of my friendship with kp&c back in yr8.


omg reading this stuff about josh is really really embarrassing hahahahhaha.


yeah im not even censoring it because 1. he doesnt read my blog, 2. even if he did, who cares, cuz this was in the past. 


i kinda want to copy and paste it here cuz its hilarious, but nah.




btw, the title of this post is from the last sentence in the last post of my open diary. fitting, huh?

long as -

- fuck.


just kinda feel like writing right now. just gonna write about anything that comes to my mind, so... yeah.

well, we got our exam timetables today, so that's exciting (!) I've got social studies on tuesday morning, french in the afternoon, nothing on wednesday, science on thursday morning, english on friday morning and art on friday afternoon. 4 day weekend after that though! i havent actually started studying yet, which... is bad. i guess. fuck im tired.

i had a basketball game today, which i wasn't actually planning on going to, but they were short on players and i thought i didnt have a ride but turns out that the school van sends us back as well. huh, someone couldve told me earlier. I guess i played better than expected for my first time ever playing a proper basketball game, considering i was expecting to like, never touch the ball once and just feel real shit. maybe i was just in a positive mood or something, idk. it was pretty fun, even though i was running around so much that i cud taste blood in my mouth. i had netball training right before the game, and got pulled out of it to go to basketball, which was like, stressful and tiring. fuck, im always so tired nowadays. meilin was running up and down the court like a speeding bullet haha.

so, vampire diaries episode. WHO WATCHED IT? spoilers ahead, btw. okay, how fucking crazy was that episode? i was legit sobbing my eyes out, noisily. i feel so damn sorry for elena and jeremy - everyone that looked after them/parental figures died! when jeremy said "i still have you" to elena i was like ADFPAKSDL;FAKSLDKFSDF MY CREYYSS!! and at the funeral scene, it was same reaction times 10. dear  john (gilbert) - RESPECT MAN. RESPECT FOR YOU. and poor jenna :( her death was unnecessary. ELIJAH U MOFO UR WORD MEANS NOTHING ANYMORE.

new fave song:

she's only 14! and her song got onto the vampire diaries soundtrack. INSPIRED.

lol me and joanna are doing a duet thingy for fun and later for the talent quest with this song:

i really suck at it. im doing a harmony haha. i suck at harmonies.

i'm reading to junior school kids at lunchtimes this year as my librarian duty! yaaaay!!! funnest job ever! 

speaking of reading, right now i'm reading unbearable lightness by portia de rossi. have i already mentioned this in a previous blog post? idk, but its really good. i have to read it on my computer though cuz i'm like, number 94 on the waiting list at auckland public libraries for it, and the book is like 40 bucks. fml. i'm also reading we need to talk about kevin but i'm not really into it. i thought it'd be nineteen minutes-esquey but so far its just kevins mother writing random, unrelated shit that i dont care about to her ex husband. GET TO THE KILLING! 

i was having a good day today until i got to maths and suddenly, i got real moody. like, hungover moody and everyone seemed to be pissing me off and talking really loud and i was like I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE WITHOUT DOING MATHS. but then maths ended and i was fine again LOL WTF.

WE'RE DOING PAINTING TMRW IN ART ZOMG IM SO EXCITED! I DONT EVEN KNW WHY I'M EXCITED BECAUSE NOW IM PROBLY GONNA PAINT SHIT, BUT WHATEVS CUZ PREVIOUS PAINTINGS OF WHAT WE'RE DOING LOOK REALLY COOL SO IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT YAY.

oh yeah, and on like, monday, i gave my tie to yujie for scholars assembly and then she gave it to joanna who gave it to lizzi and lizzi totally forgot to give it to me the whole period that we had art together that day, and today she gives me this manky, been-in-the-wash fuzzy one that DEFINITELY isnt mine. i dont even see how  she gave me the wrong tie? like, bro, how can that even be accidental? why wud u even take it out of ur bag.... not exactly i can go up to her and say "YOU STOLE MY TIE AND GAVE ME UR OLD ONE GRRRR" so, yeah. LIZZI IF UR READING THIS I WANT MY BLOODY TIE.

oh, and for my brothers birthday, i gave him 20 bucks that was tucked in this little open evenlopey thing i made that i made into a shape of a t-shirt and it had a label saying hallensteins (cuz hes a manager at hallensteins)  and "$20 off!" cuz i gave him 20 bucks haha. and on the tshirt it was like "happy birthday! i know i annoy you a lot but that's cuz im ur little sister and its in the manual". i also went to his uni graduation which was incredibly boring and kinda like school prize giving but better cuz i didnt have to behave or sit still and i cud play on my phone :)

okay its 11 and i have choir tmrw. raaaaaaaaah choir. even though i dont like going to the practices and dread it, i always feel pretty happy after choir cuz i like singing, so it lifts my mood! this year, im doing basketball, netball, badminton, choir, debating, rezo, duke of ed, and librarian this year and i really enjoy all of em except for debating. XD it means im always really busy though... :/ and maybe duke of ed, but the service stuff so far have been pretty fun. i went on sunday to waiheke to weed and shit with jade (HI JADE, IF UR READING THIS!) and cathee and quite a few other people. i'm pretty happy cuz i made friends with new people and we were all acting like dicks (as jade puts it) and made a 'super six!' group (cuz there were six of us). lol yeah. haha, everytime i pulled out a big weed with a big root, i'd be like, VICKY THE CONQUERER!!! and hurled it into the bushes XDD. soon enough, a couple of people started following my trend LOL

OKOKOKOKOK GOING TO SLEEP NOW. TIREEEDDD! been 45 minutes of writing haha. practically a fucking essay. english teacher wud be proud....

... maybe not.

A weekend

Sooo, on Saturday it was Mei's 14th Birthday Party!! I got her a Remington hair straightener and a card, in which i made a collage of famous guys she found hot. JS, I'm so fucking proud of that collage. I raped all my GF magazines finding pictures at like, 2am in the morning. Fuck, i shudve taken a photo :/

Anyway, so I got up, wrote in her card, wrapped her present, packed my shit up and went to her house at 1:30. Got there, and they were playing monopoly. Patted her dog, Oscar and he tried to bite me. GG. Cherry didn't want to play anymore and she game all her money and properties to me, so everyone was pissed at me, which made me not want to play anymore so Meilin took over my place. It kinda sucked cuz it was raining and overcast this weekend, so it was pretty cold. We went swimming anyway in Mei's pool.

Ummmmm, basically, we watched tv and movies - bummed around. Had KFC for dinner and I ate the most and felt really bad. BUT FUCK, I LOVE KFC, OKAY?! After I totally stuffed myself with KFC, mei's parents came back with 4 pizza's. omg. I ate a slice cuz someone shoved it in my mouth.

We watched Black Swan. Everytime there was a .... mature... scene, i'd get all nervous and kept looking at the door, scared that mei's parents might come in. I swear, my mum times her entrances when i'm watching movies. She ALWAYS comes in during lovescenes, even if theres only ONE in the whole movie, she'll come in during that one. IT'S SO AWKWARD.

Anyway, so, after that, we decided to put make up on each other and make everyone look like drag queens. Started off with me and joanna having a competition on who could makeover someone better. But, fuck, i don't want to talk about it. it pissed me off. never doing 'competitions' ever again. Anyway.

We moved to the pool house to go to sleep, but ended up just talking a shitload. I don't even remember what we talked about. Woke up at like, 8 cuz Meilin had to get picked up early, but apparently her thing was cancelled, so she just went to watch tv while the rest of us slept.

Had brekkie, went home, blah blah. I forgot to eat cake :(



My brother's friend brought his new puppy over today. Her name is Bella and she's a huskie. She is sooo gorgeous. But I'm used to the small, white, fluffy dogs that joanna and mei have, so Bella was pretty WOAH to me. My parents are both scared of dogs, so their reactions were hilaariiouss. Bella bites a lot -- well, actually she doesnt bite, she just gnaws her teeth against your skin, so it doesnt hurt, but i was really stupid and ripped my hand away when she did it, so she clamped down and bit me.

NASIDFJOSKDFKSDLF SHUT UP, I'M NOT USED TO DOGS. I probably sound really wussy to dog-owners or whatever.

I want a dog. Too bad I'm allergic or something. Not like, hardcore allergic, but when I stay over at friends houses who have dogs, my throat gets really dry and my nose and eyes are really itchy and that stuff.


This post was boring. Sorry.



OH BTW, this is the approx recipe for that sandwich i made ages ago.
[Makes two open sandwiches]

• 2 pieces of bread, lightly toasted
• Mayonnaise
• One capsicum, sliced.
• A largish can of chunky tuna in oil/saltwater - drained. (sorry idk the actual amount)
• Grated cheese
• Chopped nuts. (i used pistachios and walnuts)

1. Spread mayonnaise on bread. Place half of the capsicum slices evenly spaced on the bread.
2. Spoon/Fork/whatthefuckeveritdoesntmatter the tuna evenly on the bread. It should make a little hill about 3cms tall.
3. Sprinkle grated cheese on that. I used tons. 
4. Sprinkle chopped nuts on top.
5. Repeat on other piece of bread.
6. Put in mini-oven (err idk if u have one, but that's what i used) on 'grill' at 200˚C until cheese is melted.
7. Take out and squirt ranch sauce in a zigzaggy pattern to make it look pretty :)

See? Simple! But tastes fucking awesome.

Day 14

A picture of you and your family

i couldnt find anything else :S

oh, yeah, the white man holding a cup in there? yeah, he's not a part of my family. im the baby, if you didnt already figure that out

These love songs sting me still

I stare out the window, sitting on the sill

Sun’s going down,

my hearts shattered on the ground

Hope you’ll pick up the pieces but you never will

a tribute to haircuts and friends thoughout the years

warning: if you have shit internet, this may be a bitch to load.

1996 or whatever:

a little bit older. toddler years?

yep. thats a bowl cut.

then, skipping to year 7 cuz i cbf going into photo albums to find photos of other years. they were all japanese doll type hair cuts though from when i was 4 to around when i was 10. then, it became this.

Year 7

/shudder at my grossness.

and then like, halfway in year 7...

AHH I KNOW I LOOK HORRIBLE.

And then in year eight at the beginning of the year:

okay, lets play "who's the odd one out?" !

and then i got this hair:

before i got ... THE FRINGE.

and then i became best friends with this douche and started the awkward 'clip up the fringe while it grows out' stage:

and now...

asians left right centre.

:)

Btw, this post took around an hour to do cuz my internet is SHIIIITEE as.