aujourd'hui

So, it is 2am and my brother, mum, grandma and I have just gone to bed after playing Monopoly (which still isn't finished and will be continued on tomorrow morning). I WAS FUCKING WINNING AWW YEESS. It's funny though cuz at the start I was doing the worst, and I had barely any money all the time, and I kinda only just survived. But then I got the orange set by trading with my mum, and I got the dark blue set, and suddenly, it was a rags to riches story :) which is strange because monopoly is supposed to teach the player lessons of "the poor get poorer and the rich get richer". Before we ended for the night, my grandma insisted on finishing her turn, and landed on my dark blue Montreal (we have the 'world' version) which had a hotel, and she had to pay me $20 million. :DDDDDD

It was fucking hilarious omg. My brother landed on me, paid $11 million, and I'd go next and land on him and pay him $11 million. And I got free parking once which was like $12 million and I fucking did a loud victory circuit celebration thing around the lounge... at 1am.

I just realised no one cares but that monopoly game was friggin awesome.


anyway.





today, woke up at 10am, snoozed in bed until 10:45, took shower etc etc left for bus at 12:20 and met sueyeon at city at 12:50 (i was supposed to meet her at half past...)

it's nice to have a best friend like sueyeon. I think it might be a good thing that we don't go to the same school because honestly, it feels more special to see each other like, a couple times during the holidays so that we really make the most of it. And everytime we meet up it's like we never really parted, and I seem to have some of the funnest and funniest times with her, I can't explain it really. It's weird.


anyway, we went shopping for xmas presents for each other and eventually ended up in this shop called Iko Iko on K road and I dont really go on k road that often (except to visit your mum at work /wink/) so when we got there I was so lost and was like SUEEYEEONN WHEERE ARE WEEEE :(((((

so, we went on the city link bus to get there right and there were these two REALLY HOT FIREFIGHTER GUYS at the front of the bus and I think they might've been strippers even though they were wearing the legit firemen uniforms but OMG THEY WERE SO HOT akdf;alksdfsfd i tried to like, get a picture of them but 1. sueyeon kept restraining me from using my hands/taking my phone away and yelling/laughing "YOU'RE SO EMBARRASSSIIIINNGGGG", 2. my phone is dumb and has a loud beepy noise as well as a flash you cant turn off when you take the photo and 3. the firemen guys didn't turn around again for the whole duration of the trip :(

anyway, iko iko was SUCH AN ADORABLE SHOP. I got cathee's birthday present from there and also Sueyeons xmas present. Can't say what cathee's present is cuz she reads this blog, but Sueyeon's present (it's lame but she really really wanted it) was this mug that had a design on it like a scrabble letter piece with the number of points and stuff. like this one...

they have the friggin BEST badges in that shop but they were so expensive though! $3.40 for a small one i think and $6/7 for a big one. there were quite a few harry potter, big bang theory and doctor who ones. the harry potter ones were awesome. there were these"MAKE LOVE NOT HORCRUXES" and "save a broom, ride a weasley!" and "Dobby is a free elf" and house badges as well. there was a steve jobs one that said "iSad" with his face, and that one <-- with my fucking attractive face in it which i thought was pretty hilarious. Sueyeon got me a  "MAKE AWKWARD SEXUAL ADVANCES NOT WAR" badge that i fucking adore and will stick on my bag next year for school. 

Spent ages at whitcoulls before going to that shop as well buying Cathee's present and it ended up being this lame thing and i was like ugh vicky you suck but i like the stuff i bought her at iko iko.

Sueyeon needed to buy my present and she was planning on getting me a  frog shower radio thing (CUZ I REALLY REALLY WANT ONE) but it was different to the one we wanted and $30 :( but we went looking for it everywhere and ended up in the warehouse where we got distracted and started playing bop it (I FRIGGIN LOVE BOP IT).

BUT THEN WE WENT INTO THIS AISLE WHERE IT WAS LIKE ARTS AND CRAFTS AND THERE WERE FRIGGIN WHITEBOARDS FOR $15 AND I WAS LIKE *OMG* GET ME A FUCKING WHITEBOARD FOR MY ROOM AND SO SHE GOT ME A WHITEBOARD AND I AM VERY VERY STOKED WITH MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT!!!!!! it's pretty big (that's what she said) about 60cm x 40cm and i will put it in the centre of my poster wall so that i can draw shit and people can write shit WOOHOO!!!

omg that whiteboard was a bitch to take home on the bus hahahahha.

i'm not allowed to open the gift till xmas :(



oh yeah I'm desperately looking for a job right now, so if you guys know of any jobs in city/newmarket/st lukes or in mt roskill TELL ME CUZ I NEED SOME MONEY!!! I went around today at random shops just asking the shop attendants whether there were any job positions open and they were all like nup and i was like :(

if i get really even more desperado i think i'll just have to go work at the burger king near my house. although i dont even think they're hiring :( :( :(

my dad wont let me work at the restaurant. i asked him and he was like "uhhh why dont u go work at another restaurant" and i was like DAD I CAN SEE WHEN I'M NOT WANTED >:/








fuck i just realised im probably gonna have my period during the beach party thing next week and for new years UGHHHHHHHHHHH LIFE SUCKS NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO SWIM A;FJA;DKLFAJSDKLFJS'ODFSKLDFJS;AKDFJASKDF





my internets pretty much capped.









fuck.

this is why i don't have a boyfriend

I just moved my finger to go itch my eye but it moved too fast and i ended up poking my eye really hard and my eyelashes caught my finger and it got stuck for a second and now my eye hurts.





also,

supernatural: the best cast.

Just walked into the living room where mum was curled up on the couch watching tv. I look at the screen and it's the chinese tele version of winnie the pooh, so thinking she was just watching it because there was nothing else on, I switch the channel, when she suddenly yells:

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! I WAS WATCHING THAT! I WANT TO KNOW WHY RABBIT'S CROPS ARENT GROWING!!!!"

une célébrité avec une barbe et sourcils mince.... c'est qui?

i was about to go slightly insane from watching too much supernatural, so i decided to get my creative jucies flowing and i thought i might as well paint since i have paints from art this year.

oh btw i think this was the FIRST TIME i've ever tried properly painting a face!! 

I TRIED TO DRAW THE SHADOW ON THE LEFT SIDE OF HER FACE BUT FOR SOME REASON IT LOOKS LIKE A BEARD OMG.

and because of the eyebrows, i came to the conclusion that this doesnt really resemble the celebrity i was drawing, but really just looks like an unshaven drag queen....

soooo, time for you to guess who it is (leave a comment with who you thought it was!):

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er yeah. kristen stewart. hahahaha....

i dont think i will bother drawing her hair because i will most likely mess it up badly (even worse than it is atm)

oh btw dont u think from the nose up it totally looks like ashley greene!??!

there is no meaning to this post.

EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH SUPERNATURAL UGHHH SO GOOD

i guess the reality is

choir is that one thing that I've always had since I was like, in primary. I've always joined it and as much as I complain about it, I like choir and I like singing in a choir. I've always thought I was good at choir, and I thought I was good at singing.

So when you get rejected saying you're not good enough to get into choir, it's kind of a blow to the confidence gonads.

Yeah, yeah, I can still go join BWS but that's just going to be the reject choir, and if I thought this year was bad, then next year's BWS is gonna be hell, since there wont be any good people in the choir, unlike this year where there were still a couple who were pretty good.

of course, I thought i was one of the people who were pretty good.

guess not.

another thing is, choir's always there in my list of extracurriculars, and now that I havent gotten into SA, idk if i actually want to participate in BWS, so that means there won't be a choir in my extracurriculars. Even if I am in BWS, i'll just look like a pathetic little girl who can't actually sing so she has to join BWS.

and you know, I've stopped doing piano, and this is after my grade 8 exam which I only got a meager pass in, whereas now, all my friends have done grade 8 and have been getting distinctions and high distinctions and while I actually am happy for them, it makes me feel like even more of a failure.

I mean, I didn't even get into talent quest this year, so maybe I'm just getting signs left right and centre saying that I should quit singing. Spend the time and money used on it on something like piano instead.  

But I'm not good at piano either, so....

I honestly can't catch a break. Everywhere I look, I'm just not good enough. Not good enough to win Top Academic Achievement, not good enough to get into saints, not good enough at singing, not pretty enough, not tall enough, not good enough at songwriting, piano, maths, writing, tumblring, and ffs, not good enough at being a good person even.

you know how much it sucks always being second place or always being the loser?

I'm really more embarrassed than anything else about this, but being the narcissistic whore that I am, I feel the need to complain about it so that people will say "OH, DONT WORRY, YOU'RE ACTUALLY GOOD AT SINGING" or some shit like that when it's not true. So, if you think i'm seeking attention, you're probably right. (just in case u didn't think i didn't already know...)

Bottom line is:

I thought I was good at something, but apparently I'm not.

Welcome to my life.

fuck my life

just finished watching season 4 finale of supernatural.

i am sobbing and i have goosebumps all over and my heart is shattered.
how the fuck am i supposed to go to sleep WHEN THE MOTHERFUCKING APOCALYPSE JUST STARTED!?!?!

RUBY THAT LYING CONNIVING MANIPULATIVE HORRIBLE SON OF A BITCH I AM SO ANGRY.

AND I FUCKING THOUGHT THAT ANGELS WERE SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD GUYS BUT NOOOO THEY HAD TO FUCK EARTH OVER AS WELL.

and now lucifer is out but dean has to kill him cuz he swore to the angels BUT HOW THE FUCK DOES ONE KILL THE DEVIL!?!?


forever crying.


everything hurts.




this is not healthy.





(does anyone here watch supernatural? i desperately need someone to fangirl with...)

2011

I think I can safely say that 2011 has been the best year I've had so far.

I guess there have been other good years - Year 6 and 5 hold lots of great memories for me. I can't really remember anything except for odd random memories from before Year 4. There were aspects in Year 7 that were kind of horrible for me: I didn't like MRIS at all and thought my time was being wasted at school everyday since I never actually learnt anything and the extracurriculars were shit, etc. The friends were alright, even though I'm not close to any of my old friends there anymore. Year 9 form class was pretty lame cuz we didn't even know each other. I got close with Jade and Maria and Maggie and stuff in Year 9 though, which was pretty good. I loved social studies and maths class in Year 9 - not the subjects, but the class environment, yknw?

Well, first reason why this year rocked: I've had a great class who I've gotten so close to, and I'm basically friends with everyone and a lot of them are just such awesome people who I think I'll continue being friends with even if we're in different classes next year. Sure, we won't be as close, but hopefully we'll still say hi in the corridors or something. It's been one of my favourite classes I've had. Year 9 was pretty shit because our class just didn't know each other and I can barely remember who was actually in my class. I guess I really don't want that to happen next year in Year 11 since our intake will be split up, but I really really wish we didn't have to change classes and destroy the friendships we made this year. This is basically the main reason I don't want this year to end. I've made so many new friends in a lot of my classes - not just my form class. But yeah, my form class is close and I genuinely think my form class is the best one in our year level. We've got the best people (no bitches or overly-socially retarded people) and we're really tight, unlike a couple of other intakes, so I think I was really lucky to get into Intake 1.

Second, my teachers this year have been the best. (In fact, I should be doing my xmas cards to them atm but I got distracted with checking my blogspot, then seeing winnie's post, then deciding to write a blog post cuz I am a emotional teenage motherfucker with a lot of feelings). My xmas cards are pretty much going to be the same for all of my teachers, even though everything I say for each of them would be completely genuine. I really have learnt so much and I've got pretty good relationships with my teachers this year, albeit a couple of them are still pretty intimidating (cough Mr Howe). I mean, I got really good marks in my end of year exams (all E's!!!) and everythings been going shitgood. I've enjoyed all my subjects and I wouldn't mind at all having the same bunch of teachers next year (yes, even maybe the certain science teacher if it meant I got to have the same teachers in all my other subjects). I really hope I get Mdme Morton again next year cuz French was so fun this year, and I learnt so so so much in English - more than I ever have in other years. Our Art class was so much chill than all the other Art classes and everyone just cracks lame jokes and we all talk about vampire diaries across the room while Mr Ball just does our artwork for us hahaha.

Then, I've got my 'asian' group at school, who (from my perspective) haven't had too much drama this year. I mean, for me, at least. Year 9 was kinda shit cuz me and Joanna were fighting and estranged from each other for the whole year and I had way too many caps lock arguments with a couple of people over facebook haahha. One aspect that sucked about this year was that so many people from our group changed schools (Reb, Rach, Ding....), and next year even more people are leaving (Aimee, possibly Meilin), but the people that left only left in Term 4 so it didn't impact on the year much. And plus I've been seeing them so much these couple of weeks cuz of all the birthday parties people have been having. I know that for some people they've been having a shit time this year regarding friendship drama, and I also know some people who hated last year cuz of friends excluding them/bullying them, and so this year has been waaay better for them.

I'm feeling really melancholic about this year ending. I'm really effing looking forward to holidays and just not going to school anymore, but I just wish that once holidays finish and Term 1 2012 starts nothing changes from this year so everything could just be as good as 2011. A lot of other things have contributed on 2011 being a good year (Kah*nui, Vampire diaries lol, etc) but I have a feeling that everything next year may change. It sucks cuz I'm not allowed to talk about it with anyone so I'm just in my little corner alone suffering the waiting process by myself.....
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....yep I'm pregnant.

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.... Just kidding.


Here's hoping for a good  great 2012.