long as -

- fuck.


just kinda feel like writing right now. just gonna write about anything that comes to my mind, so... yeah.

well, we got our exam timetables today, so that's exciting (!) I've got social studies on tuesday morning, french in the afternoon, nothing on wednesday, science on thursday morning, english on friday morning and art on friday afternoon. 4 day weekend after that though! i havent actually started studying yet, which... is bad. i guess. fuck im tired.

i had a basketball game today, which i wasn't actually planning on going to, but they were short on players and i thought i didnt have a ride but turns out that the school van sends us back as well. huh, someone couldve told me earlier. I guess i played better than expected for my first time ever playing a proper basketball game, considering i was expecting to like, never touch the ball once and just feel real shit. maybe i was just in a positive mood or something, idk. it was pretty fun, even though i was running around so much that i cud taste blood in my mouth. i had netball training right before the game, and got pulled out of it to go to basketball, which was like, stressful and tiring. fuck, im always so tired nowadays. meilin was running up and down the court like a speeding bullet haha.

so, vampire diaries episode. WHO WATCHED IT? spoilers ahead, btw. okay, how fucking crazy was that episode? i was legit sobbing my eyes out, noisily. i feel so damn sorry for elena and jeremy - everyone that looked after them/parental figures died! when jeremy said "i still have you" to elena i was like ADFPAKSDL;FAKSLDKFSDF MY CREYYSS!! and at the funeral scene, it was same reaction times 10. dear  john (gilbert) - RESPECT MAN. RESPECT FOR YOU. and poor jenna :( her death was unnecessary. ELIJAH U MOFO UR WORD MEANS NOTHING ANYMORE.

new fave song:

she's only 14! and her song got onto the vampire diaries soundtrack. INSPIRED.

lol me and joanna are doing a duet thingy for fun and later for the talent quest with this song:

i really suck at it. im doing a harmony haha. i suck at harmonies.

i'm reading to junior school kids at lunchtimes this year as my librarian duty! yaaaay!!! funnest job ever! 

speaking of reading, right now i'm reading unbearable lightness by portia de rossi. have i already mentioned this in a previous blog post? idk, but its really good. i have to read it on my computer though cuz i'm like, number 94 on the waiting list at auckland public libraries for it, and the book is like 40 bucks. fml. i'm also reading we need to talk about kevin but i'm not really into it. i thought it'd be nineteen minutes-esquey but so far its just kevins mother writing random, unrelated shit that i dont care about to her ex husband. GET TO THE KILLING! 

i was having a good day today until i got to maths and suddenly, i got real moody. like, hungover moody and everyone seemed to be pissing me off and talking really loud and i was like I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE WITHOUT DOING MATHS. but then maths ended and i was fine again LOL WTF.

WE'RE DOING PAINTING TMRW IN ART ZOMG IM SO EXCITED! I DONT EVEN KNW WHY I'M EXCITED BECAUSE NOW IM PROBLY GONNA PAINT SHIT, BUT WHATEVS CUZ PREVIOUS PAINTINGS OF WHAT WE'RE DOING LOOK REALLY COOL SO IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT YAY.

oh yeah, and on like, monday, i gave my tie to yujie for scholars assembly and then she gave it to joanna who gave it to lizzi and lizzi totally forgot to give it to me the whole period that we had art together that day, and today she gives me this manky, been-in-the-wash fuzzy one that DEFINITELY isnt mine. i dont even see how  she gave me the wrong tie? like, bro, how can that even be accidental? why wud u even take it out of ur bag.... not exactly i can go up to her and say "YOU STOLE MY TIE AND GAVE ME UR OLD ONE GRRRR" so, yeah. LIZZI IF UR READING THIS I WANT MY BLOODY TIE.

oh, and for my brothers birthday, i gave him 20 bucks that was tucked in this little open evenlopey thing i made that i made into a shape of a t-shirt and it had a label saying hallensteins (cuz hes a manager at hallensteins)  and "$20 off!" cuz i gave him 20 bucks haha. and on the tshirt it was like "happy birthday! i know i annoy you a lot but that's cuz im ur little sister and its in the manual". i also went to his uni graduation which was incredibly boring and kinda like school prize giving but better cuz i didnt have to behave or sit still and i cud play on my phone :)

okay its 11 and i have choir tmrw. raaaaaaaaah choir. even though i dont like going to the practices and dread it, i always feel pretty happy after choir cuz i like singing, so it lifts my mood! this year, im doing basketball, netball, badminton, choir, debating, rezo, duke of ed, and librarian this year and i really enjoy all of em except for debating. XD it means im always really busy though... :/ and maybe duke of ed, but the service stuff so far have been pretty fun. i went on sunday to waiheke to weed and shit with jade (HI JADE, IF UR READING THIS!) and cathee and quite a few other people. i'm pretty happy cuz i made friends with new people and we were all acting like dicks (as jade puts it) and made a 'super six!' group (cuz there were six of us). lol yeah. haha, everytime i pulled out a big weed with a big root, i'd be like, VICKY THE CONQUERER!!! and hurled it into the bushes XDD. soon enough, a couple of people started following my trend LOL

OKOKOKOKOK GOING TO SLEEP NOW. TIREEEDDD! been 45 minutes of writing haha. practically a fucking essay. english teacher wud be proud....

... maybe not.