i hate it

i hate it when i get into those moods, where you get so sensitive, and everything people say, even if it's a joke, just make you feel so down. Things normally, you don't even give a thought about and just laugh off, but somehow, you just can't seem to do when you're in one of these moods. when you think to yourself 'so, is that how people view me?' and 'are they saying this because it's actually true?' and 'why doesn't anyone care?'.

i hate it when people do things that hurt you, even though they don't know they're doing it, and you can't actually blame them, because they're at no fault. like, if someone is continuously better than you, and you need to ask for their help all the time. but you can't blame them, cuz it's not their fault, in fact, they're being a great friend. but still, you can't help but to be jealous. sometimes you just need someone to blame, yknow?

i hate it when people just don't bother to make things better. we don't talk anymore, but i want to be friends, however, whenever i text you or facebook you or whatever, you don't reply, and i know you're online. you're just ignoring me. don't ignore me. we used to be friends. what happened? i know what happened, and i want to fix it. let me fix it.

i hate it when people don't understand how you're feeling. sometimes, you just need someone to nod along and give you a hug. i don't need your judgement. i don't need your advice. i don't need your pity. just be there for me.

i hate it when you are so proud of something, and you show it to your friends or family, and they just brush it off, like the hours you spent on it were a waste of time. like you're a waste a time. maybe they realise your face has fallen from its typical grin, and they backtrack, raving on about how great it is, but you know they're lying. and you're confidence falls back a couple notches, and suddenly, that something just doesn't seem so great anymore.

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.